Thy Will, Not Mine

Chapter {25} Destiny

When?

That's the question that had been running through my head for the past day, when, a simple four-letter word with a more complex meaning.

When had I fallen head over heels for someone who could only remain a friend? Had it been when he had affectionately embraced me? Or when I found out how much dislike he had for ice cream?

The question was still on my mind as I made my way to the class and because of my distracted mind, I bumped into a hard body, nearly falling over from the impact of the collision before cold hands steadied me and familiar blue orbs looked down at me.

"Destiny!" His stunned blue orbs stared back at me as his voice reflected surprise and joy.

"Samuel!" I exclaimed, shocked to see him back so quickly, last time I checked he was back in the States.

Before my thoughts could take me any further, Samuel pulled me into an awkward hug, wrapping his hands tightly around my lower back, making me undoubtedly uncomfortable, but I managed to give him a small tap on the back, not being able to do anything more than that.

I quickly pulled back when his arms wrapped only tighter at my back as time passed and looked up only to see him grinning down at me.

"I missed you so much!" He said all too loudly, gathering eyes from the learners that were passing by.

"I missed you too," I forced up a smile still uncomfortable from the one-sided hug.

"So, what's good?" He asked trying to catch up with me, the grin never daring to leave his face as we walked to Physiology. His American accent was more prominent than ever, probably due to the fact that he had spent time speaking with it.

"I have been doing great by God's grace and love, this time I had a genuine smile as I spoke about the one person who could turn something bad into something wonderful.

His lips seemed to forcefully twitch into a smile as I mentioned the Lord's name but maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me otherwise, why would he be upset at the mention of The Heavenly Father?

"That's good, I'm sorry for missing your birthday, had it been up to me I would flown back here the minute the clock struck twelve ò clock but pops needed me to take care of Simon; my little bro as he had a last-minute meeting to attend." He said looking into my eyes sincerely like he had committed the worst crime in the world by not coming back on my birthday.

"There's no need to explain yourself, you were where you were needed plus Thato did pass on the message," I reassured him with a smile as he released a relieved sigh.

We walked together unbeknownst to the eyes that followed our every move, with fury and envy burning behind them.

*****

The day seemed to drag by today, each minute slowly ticking into an hour, and the hours ticking away at a snail's pace before my favourite class; Business Studies came by.

I could not wait to see him by him of course, I mean Nio. His face was enough to send my emotions haywire and leave my heart a beating mess but surprisingly I loved it, the way my heart beat ten beats at once only at one gaze at him and the way my mouth automatically stretched into a smile at the sight of him was enough to push me further into the class where Mr Heywood was late as usual, making me remember how he had specifically expressed how he hated tardiness with a passion but it seemed like he was not punctual himself but he looked out to get me, come to think of it he has not defended me when Samantha had purposely pulled my chair back and he seemed annoyed after taking one glance at me. But why?

Was it because I was the only black person in the class or because of the way I handled myself in terms of speech and actions? I guess I would never find out because, at the end of the day, I was there to learn and take secret glances at Nio and not worry about some old professor who had some kind of dislike towards me; whether he loved me or not, I would love him either way.

As I walked to my seat I noticed that ever since Samantha had passed, the class was more placid, no more group gossiping or loud name shaming but just peaceful. Rebecca had even changed courses because she could not bear the thought of being in the same class her best friend was in without being reminded of the times they had shared together. Despite all that she had done, I would miss her, because, under that cold attitude, there was someone who silently cried for love and attention which she looked for in the wrong places, instead of going to the one who was love himself and who would give her all his undivided attention she turned to the people of this world who would never love her in the way she deserved to be loved. Part of me felt guilty for not sharing the mind-blowing love of the Lord with her and for not at least trying to civilly converse with her perhaps if I did she would probably still be alive today and much happier than she was.

I remembered a verse my Sunday school teacher taught me from a tender age, Psalms 86 verse 5 clearly said that the Love of God was abounding, neverending and beautiful. How precious he was to me.

I finally reached my seat, after long thoughts and looked at Nio as usual had his face buried under his phone but that action alone was enough to make my butterflies fly free and wild in my stomach.

"Hi!" I said with more than usual enthusiasm and joy.

"Hi," he bluntly replied without sparing me a glance or even saying the lovely term of endearment.

"How are you?" Perhaps he was not in the best of moods today and needed someone to cheer him up.

"Good."

"Okay... So I just wanted to thank you for yesterday, the amount of care you showed and even paying for lunch, that was very nice of you," I had truly been meaning to thank him for all he had done for me yesterday from offering me a same shoulder to cry on to offering to pay for lunch, those actions especially the former touched my heart.

Now he lifted his face from the phone and stared at me, "I was doing what I had to do but you did not find it right to inform me that you had a boyfriend otherwise I would've wasted my breath."

I was angry now, "Excuse me. What are you talking about?" I did not have a boyfriend so why was he acting so weirdly?

He rolled his eyes, anger also tugging at the ends of his eyes, "Don't play dumb Destiny, I saw you hugging him this morning."

Who had I hugged this morning? I racked my mind trying to remember who of the opposite gender I had hugged and it clicked; Samuel.

"Oh, no the person you saw me hugging was Samuel, a friend of mine and truth being spoken I did not want to hug him but he suddenly jumped on me," I replied with a smile, feeling the need to explain myself to clear up his confusion.

For a second or so Nio seems deep in thought before he nodded slowly his beautiful round eyes showing remorse for the harsh accusation he had thrown on me.

"Oh, okay."

"Would it kill you to say sorry?" I asked out of mere curiosity. I felt like the words were sitting on the tip of his tongue but he failed to vocalise them or rather didn't want to say them.

"Y- No... It wouldn't. Amore I am... sorry for accusing you without any valid proof." He said ever so slowly but I appreciated it.

"Apology accepted," though even if he had not apologised I would've still forgiven him.

He rolled his eyes just as Mr Heywood entered the class in his lazy walk, and glasses perched on his nose.