Memories Of The Wind (Passion Series #3)

Chapter 14

It was a long tiring day so I decided to rest in my room since Jaxxon is resting on the other room. I am laying on my bed right now, staring at the ceiling and thinking what just happened earlier.

It was so excruciating for me and I can't even tell everyone the truth, I cannot tell everyone that Bruce was the one who burned all my magazines. I've been working hard for all of it and it did not come up from my mind that this would possible to be happened. It seems like I wasted years for nothing, I strive for nothing.

No one knows how painful it was. Kung para sa iba ay wala lang iyon, para sa akin ay sobrang mahalaga iyon kasi pinagsikapan at pinaghirapan ko ang lahat-lahat ng iyon ngunit sa isang iglap..

Why does he have to do this? May ginawa ba akong mali sa kaniya na hindi kapata-patawad? I know that he likes me but why everything goes this far? Parang unti-unti akong dinudurog dahil sa nangyayari ngayon. Sinisikap kong magpakatatag kahit alam kong mahina ako.

Matanggap ko pa ang mga pinanggagawa ni Bruce sa akin simula noong pumasok ako sa industriya pero iyong sirain ang lahat ng pinaghirapan ko? Sobra-sobra na siya!

All I want is peace, I never wanted this. Hindi ko gusto na mangyayari ito kasi kung ako ang papiliin ay mas piliin ko pa iyong panahong hindi ko pa kilala si Bruce. Bakit kasi dumating pa siya sa buhay ko? Bakit kailangan sa kaniyang paraan ko pa maranasan ang lahat ng parusa sa mundong ito?

I tried to hold my tears but I couldn't, it keeps falling down. Tinakpan ko ang aking bibig para lamang na walang hikbi ang lumabas mula rito. What about my hardship for the past years? Lahat-lahat, kahit pagod na ako ay binubuhos ko para lamang sa pangarap kong ito pero bakit ito ang kinalabasan? This really matters to me because everyone knows how much I love my passion. Everyone knows that this meant a lot to me.

I shut my eyes while sobbing. Gusto kong magalit, gusto kong sigawan si Bruce dahil sa ginawa niya pero hindi ko magawa. Bakit ba kasi sobrang hina ko?

Nagawa na niya ang isa sa mga bagay na kinakatakutan ko. He keeps blackmailing me.. he keeps telling me that if I ever tell everyone about him, about how he treats me.. he'll do anything just to ruin me and my love ones. Natatakot akong magsumbong, nanghihina ako dahil nakasalalay rito ang lahat ng mga taong mahalaga sa buhay ko.

Kilalang-kilala ko si Bruce, kapag sinabi niya, siguradong gagawin at gagawin niya. Hindi siya kilala ng lahat, hindi nila alam kung gaano siya kahalimaw, hindi alam ng lahat kung gaano siya sama. Tanging ako lamang ang nakakilala sa pagkatao niya, tanging ako lang ang nakakaalam kung ano ba talaga siya.

I did not know how long I've been thinking about what happened, I fell asleep in between my thoughts and woke up with a heavy pain in my chest. Bumalikwas ako sa aking kama at napayakap sa aking sarili. I am sweating bullets and my heart is pounding so hard. My tears are keep streaming down on my cheeks while I'm remembering about my dream.

"Don't tell anyone about this. Do you understand?" he commanded in a dangerous tone. "Don't ever tell anyone," he warned again.

He touched every corner of my body and kissed every corner of my face like I am his property even though I am not.. and I will never be. I have nothing to do but to let him do whatever he wants to do to me even if it leads to disrespect me. I bit my lower lip so that a sob won't escape from my mouth, I don't want to let him see how useless and how weak I am.

"Sumagot ka!" His voice thundered in every corner of the room.

Halos tumabingi ang ulo ko nang bigla niya akong sinampal. Sobrang lakas niyon, nagsanhi pa ng tunog at alam kong namumula ang pisngi ko ngayon dahil doon. Hindi ko na napigilan ang aking sarili at tuluyan na akong humikbi. Inangat niya ang baba ko at mahigpit na hinawakan ako sa aking panga, walang pakialam na nasasaktan ako sa ginagawa niya. Nanlalabo na rin ang aking paningin dahil sa mga luhang bumabadya sa aking mga mata.