I love guessing what you're up to;
"Right now, he's probably asleep or maybe he's cleaning the house."
"It's almost 4 PM, if he won't do any school work, then he'd be out of school by now."
"Maybe I'll see him when I go out, he'd probably go to the cafeteria or hang out with his friends."
I hadn't realized this until today, I thought I was finally doing okay. I am okay, I think? Honestly, I don't understand how I'm still here. I'm not waiting, I'm not slacking time. I just found myself here. There's this unuttered peace between myself and the way I love people unquestionably. At the same time, I can't dodge the thoughts building along. I wouldn't have to guess if I'm still beside you. You would've just told me so willingly if I decided to ask, sometimes it just comes up from your mouth. I used to be a part of a person's life, I used to know everything about you.
Right now, I sit alone, thinking of how I met your eyes a moment ago and how I don't recognize them-not anymore.
They used to gaze at me with such life, so unspokenly satisfied. I vividly remember how pretty your eyes were. It took the life out of me and decided to show itself between us. I miss the spark, the warmth, and the comfort in them. Though I don't hear, I see. I knew you adored me too. I miss hearing "I love you," through your eyes.
I'd nearly forgotten the feeling of love as the pain outshone it, but I only had to look into your eyes. I remember now, I remember how much I loved you then. And I feel everything again.
I loved you, I almost forgot. So dear, so much.
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
To Fill or Burst, To Break or Bury
PuisiI may have been the one who wrote this book, yet it undoubtedly belongs to you. Even if our hearts were meant to fill or burst, or even break or bury, today's me will always, always love you-through the shiniest or even the darkest side. No matter w...
