mental illness » peterick

1.6

Nighttime.

The room Pete and I shared was quiet. Which was a bit weird since we were always talking about nonsense. On my desk was a crumpled piece of paper.
What's this?

"Patrick, I want you to read this whenever you have a bad day. I wrote it for you. - Tyler.

Remember the moment you know exactly where you're going,
'Cause the next moment, before you know it,
Time is slowing and it's frozen still,
And the window sill looks really nice, right?
You think twice about your life, it probably happens at night,
Right? Fight it, take the pain, ignite it,
Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it,
To a tree, tell it, 'You belong to me,
This ain't a noose, this is a leash,
And I have news for you, you must obey me.' "

Holy shit, Tyler's words are beautiful.

I really have to go and thank him for this.

There was a knock on the door. I looked at Pete.

"I'll get it." He said.

"Way."

"Wentz."

"Which Way brother is it?" I asked.

"The nerdy looking one."

"Pete, please don't be mean. Come in, Mikey!"

Mikey walked in and his face was pinker than usual.

"H-hey Patrick!"

"What's up?"

"Gerard is back with Lynz." He said, not looking me in the eye. He laughed a bit nervously after.

"Aw. I'm glad, they're so cute together." I said.

"Kinda makes me wish I h-had someone. W-who could love a boy with anxiety?"

"Mikey, your mental illness does not define you. Someone will surely fall for you. You're amazing!"

Mikey blushed. "T-thanks Patrick. You always know what to say."

"Do I?"

"Yeah."

"I only speak the truth Michael!"

Pete eventually left. I guess he couldn't take Mikey and I's argument about DC vs Marvel.

"I have something to tell you." Mikey blurted out.

"Shoot."

"I think i'm falling for you more and more everyday. I can't get you out of my head."

Oh shit.

"I-" before I could even finish my sentence, Mikey pulled me in for a kiss.

I broke away.

"Mikey.."

I don't want to hurt his feelings.

"I think we should stay friends."

"Okay. I don't know why I thought I had a chance in the first place. I think i'm going to go now."

I gave him a hug.

"I'm sorry Mikey. I just-"

"Don't apologize. Like I said who could love a boy with anxiety?"

He left.

I felt beyond horrible.

I mean..

It's not my fault if I don't like him back?

Will he hate me?

Will Gerard hate me?

I shoved my face in my pillow. "Ugh."

Suddenly the door swung open.

"Mikey?"

"Nope, it's Petey." His voice sounded more playful than usual.

"Oh. Hey."

"Hiiii." He laid down next to me on my bed.

"Y-you don't smell nice, Pete."

I think he almost smelled like alcohol.

"Have you been drinking?"

"Yes mom!"

"Where the hell did you even get alcohol?"

"Hayley and Gerard."

"Pete, what the fuck is wrong with you? You should have taken the alcohol away from Hayley.. you know she has a drinking problem. Gerard is depressed and alcohol will not help him get any better."

"But we had fun!" Pete said.

"I don't care."

"Hayley kissed me."

Oh.

I didn't respond.

"Do you like her?" I blurted out.

"No. So I pushed her away. I'm in love with you, Patrick. Hehe. You have really chubby cheeks."

Am I hearing right?

He came closer to me and placed a soft kiss on my lips.

"I'm sleepy, 'Trick! Goodnight." He turned over and fell asleep.

What the hell just happened?

I just need to rest.

This day has been wild from start to finish.

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HEY WHATS UP HELLO?? I STILL WANT TO DO THE CHARACTER ASK THING BUT NO ONE IS COMMENTING QUESTIONS :-((.

Anyway the characters you can ask questions are..

Patrick

Pete

Gerard

Mikey

Hayley

Debby

Josh

Tyler

Aaaand me/the author!! Even tho i'm not a character lmao ok ty bye <33