I know I abandoned you,
and you don't owe me anything.
I just thought,
because you are such a people pleaser,
you might have forgiven me by now.
Just like everyone else who has ever hurt you.
Is this the silent treatment?
Did I teach you how to do that?
You do not answer my calls.
My texts go unread, and I wonder if you changed your number.
I reach out anyway.
Each text is an apology.
Sometimes you have to read between the lines to find the "I'm sorry".
"I saw those flowers you like today. Thought of you."
"We finally got dogs. I think they would love you"
"They never change. Just thought you should know."
"Separate your sisters. They are only hurting each other."
Of course, Everything means something. i.e.
I saw those flowers you like today. I was sorry you couldn't see them for yourself.
We finally got dogs, and that is a love you do not have to earn.
I know you want things to change, but you need to be prepared for how much it is going to hurt when everything stays the same.
Separate your sisters. This pain is perpetual but you can slow it down a little.
I really am sorry.
Never let me make it up to you.
You deserved better.
And not just from me either.
Everyone owed you more than they gave you.
Except nana. She tried her best. There is only so much she could do.
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