TW: None
Why do I try to fix myself when I can do nothing. I'll just get back here anyways. I love and hate having problems because it shows that my life isn't that perfect but it can still be way worse and AA. I want to stop self harming but also don't. I don't have to motivation to try to fix things sometimes. I'll think about trying to deal with my negative thoughts but then I forget.
I'm not sure how a therapist can help I have given up hope that I will get another one anyways. I feel stuck and as if things are on repeat. I hate repetition.
