CONSEQUENCE OF TEMPTATION

Chapter Four

A little bit of patience.

Yan ang araw araw kong hinihingi habang inaalagaan si Zach. This is the hardest work I ever had. Ilang araw na kong hindi nakakatulog ng maayos dahil sa kanya. He always cry all night and I can't understand what he wants. Hindi naman siya gutom o hindi naman puno ang diaper niya. He's just crying.

"Meron ka na bang nahanap na nanny?" Tanong ko sa kakilala kong agency.

"Wala pa ho Mr. Montenegro." Anito kaya napa-buntong hininga ako at binaba ang phone. Damn! Everything is starting to piss me off.

Hindi na naman ako nakapasok sa trabaho dahil sa late akong nagising. Isa pang kinakainis ko ay di dumating ang babysitter na tinawagan ko dahil may sakit daw ang anak niya. My secretary was calling me a hundred times already but I ignored it. My head is pulsing and Zach's crying is really not helping.

I reached for my phone and scan my contacts. Pinagisipan ko kung tatawagan ko si mommy o hindi. Naiinis na binagsak ko ang katawan ko sa sofa at tinakpan ng throw pillow ang tenga ko. Just please! I need a damn silence for a while!

Isang doorbell ang nakakuha ng attention ko kaya lumapit ako dun. I saw Laurent grinning like a lunatic and welcomed hisself in my penthouse.

"Wala ka bang trabaho?" Tanong ko.

"I'm on my leave." Aniya at nilapitan ang crib ni Zach, "Hi there buddy. I'm your ninong Laurent." He said and suddenly, Zach stopped crying, "Oh, you like me baby? You like my handsome face, huh?"

Tahimik ko tong pinanood nang kargahin niya si Zach. Napa-iling ako at humiga sa sofa. At last! Silence!

"Why don't you rest, bud? You look restless. Ako nang bahala sa inaanak ko. You know I love kids." Aniya at binalik ang tingin kay Zach.

"Okay, honey. Take care of our baby." I teased and his face crumpled making me laugh.

"Gago!" He chuckled, "Seriously bro, get some rest. I'll handle this."

"Thanks man." I utter before heading to my bed. Pagkahiga ko pa lang ay agad akong nakatulog.

It was already dark when I woke up. Naligo muna ko bago lumabas ng kuwarto at naabutan ko si Laurent na hinehele si Zach. I grinned at him.

"Puwede na." Saad ko. He raised his middle finger at me and told me to keep quiet. I shrugged my shoulders and head to the kitchen to cook us some food. Maya lang ay lumapit si Laurent at nagsalin ng alak sa baso.

"That was fun." Aniya.

"I don't see fun in that." I answered and he chuckled.

"Because you don't like kids."

"I like kids too but not that I will babysit them, all right? I'm not yet ready with this, man. This is so surprising and immediate to me. I wasn't expecting this."

"You're already a father Zephyr. That child is a blessing. Hindi mo pa siguro nakikita sa ngayon dahil hindi mo pa siya matanggap. But someday you will." He said and finished his whisky, "I need to go, man. I need a good fuck tonight."

"Well, enjoy." I utter with a hint of disappointment.

"I know you want some hoe too but it's not your lucky night. Take a good care of my godson for me." Nagpaalam na ito kaya naiwan na naman akong mag-isa. Kumain ako at hinugasan ang pinagkainan ko tsaka ko lumapit sa crib kung nasaan si Zach.

Kailan ko ba matatanggap to? I miss my life before. I miss fucking and hanging out in the club. I miss everything and in just a snap, everything I want to do is gone. I'm stuck with this little kid. I keep on having a silent war on whether I should accept the baby or not and it's giving me stress.