Peaky Blinders Imagines✔️

Alfie- I Missed You

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Alfie Solomons, a name I never thought I would see or hear about again, let alone receive a letter from him. My first love, my only love. We broke up because I didn't like the illegal activity. I asked him to stop dealing with the Shelby's when I found out I was pregnant, he didn't so I left him. He never knew, do I feel guilty for that? Yes. But I wasn't going to put my daughter in danger.
I pick up the letter that has been sat at my desk the last 3 days. Sighing I open it up

My dearest YN,
It's been 5 years since we last spoke.
I wish I wasn't having to write to you
with this news. I have skin cancer. I'd rather die on my own terms, before this happens
I'd like to see you one last time.
Yours sincerely
Alfie

With shaking hands I put down the letter and wipe the tears from my face
"Mummy? Why are you sad?"
"Hi love" I smile at my daughter Betty who walks into my bedroom
"Your crying"
"I just got a letter from an old friend. Someone who I never thought I would hear from again"
"But why are you crying?"
"Errm mummy's friend is poorly"
"Then you have to go see them. Take your special biscuits with you" it comes to something when your 5 year old has more sense than you do. Smiling I place my hands on my daughters face
"When did you get so smart?" Betty giggles as I kiss her forehead "your right though mummy should go and see her friend"

I arrive at the familiar address nervous how I'm going to find Alfie. Taking a breath I knock on the door. I'm not waiting long when Ollie answers the door
"YN. What are you...?"
"Alfie wrote to me. You gonna let me in my house?"
"Sure" I walk through the doors "where is he?"
"Front room" I nod my head and walk to where Ollie told me. That's when I see him sat on the sofa, he looks pale, lifeless almost. Chocking back a cry I walk over to the man I love
"YN you came. I missed you"
"Alf. What... when did... oh god Alfie"
"I'm dying YN"
"But your invincible Alf" I sit down crying "and I've been so selfish leaving you"
"Hey. You warned me. I didn't listen"
"But Alfie.. I took your daughter with me. You have a child and I...."
"I have a daughter?" I give Alfie a nod "can I meet her before I die"
"No Alf your not gonna die. There's options. I've heard about a..."
"YN, Tommys going to kill me"
"He's agreed to that?"
"Not quite. Listen I don't want to talk about this. Tell me about my daughter. What's she like?"
And so I tell him about Betty. How she has his eyes, his smile. A few days later Alfie meets Betty. I decided not to tell her that day that Alfie is her father because who knows what that would have done to her. Another week later I hear about his death. Like he said, shot by Tommy Shelby.

A year later I receive a letter from Ollie telling me to go to Margate, asks me to bring Betty with me as there is a surprise waiting at the beach for me. I slowly exit the car picking Betty up from her seat. That's when I see him, Alfie stood on the beach
"Mummy it's your friend. He came back" Betty says excitedly. I walk over to him shocked, am I dreaming?
"YN"
"How are you alive?"
"After Tommy, you know, I survived and if I can survive that I could survive my illness" Alfie says carful of his words in front of Betty "I live here now. Away from my past, just like you always wanted. I'd like for us to live together. Be a family. I want to start over again"
"Alf we can't start over again. There's Betty yo think about"
"Mummy can I go play?" Betty asks
"Of course" I put her down and she runs off to play in the sand. Alfie and I both watch her
"Does she knows I'm her dad"
"No. I didn't think it would be fair on her to tell her that you were her dad, then tell her that you were dying. I couldn't do that to her"
"I understand. But I'm not dying now. She can know that I'm her dad know right?"
"Yes and if, only if she's happy to then maybe we can move here"
"I'd like that"
We continue to watch Betty playing in the sand and sea. I could definitely see myself living here. And behind here with Alfie, something I always wanted, it's like a dream finally coming true.