Hold, Rain

rain ─ 11

TW : physical & verbal abuse

"Balita ko, tatakbo raw governor ang Dad mo?" Tuon pansin sa'kin ni Bea, nag katinginan pa kaming tatlo. Umiwas naman ako kaagad at umiling.

It's been months since he started his campaign, i knew this because of kuya. Hindi niya rin sinasagot ang mga tawag ng parents namin because of this, we don't want to be involved by it.

I don't want to be associated with that old hag, I don't want to be admit that i'm related to him.

Hindi nga ako nag kamali dahil alam kong gagamitin niya 'ko at ang medical school bilang bahagi ng advocacy at campaign niya, sa susunod na linggo na ang botohan kaya sobra ang pag pilit niya sa'kin.

I want to be recognized by them but not in this way, I don't want to be used. Pero ganun ang turing nila sa'kin, isang bagay lang.

"I don't want to do it," tanging sagot ko sakaniya ngunit tanging malakas na buntong hininga niya lang ang narinig ko. My hands are shaking and my heart is beating so fast, everytime i hear his deep sigh. Suddenly, i'm a child again, shaking because of fear, because i knew he was mad.

Dahil kapag ginagawa niya 'yon ay alam kong sasaktan niya ko at walang magagawa ang nanay ko roon, maging ako. umiiyak lang siya habang pinipigilan ang lalaking nasa harapan ko.

"You're nothing but a fucking disappointment! This is all I ask you to do for me. You're Ungrateful, Rosette," Nanginginig na sabi niya sa'kin.

"Why are you doing this to me? I'm just... i'm just a child, a kid...Pinatay niyo na lang sana ako," My heart broke, i can't do this anymore. I want to be free, from everyone, from everything.

Ang mga salitang 'yon ang sinasabi niya sa'kin sa tuwing uuwi ako dito, sa tingin niya ba ay sasaya ako sa puder niya? Seconds later, i feel my cheek burning. Nakatikim ako ng malakas na sampal mula sakaniya.

"Ilang beses ba kita itatakwil para lang matauhan ka," He shouted and cursed at me but i didn't cry, i can't show him that i'm weak, I can't show him that he's bigger than me.

My mom hugged me tight, "Mom, please, stop crying," I knew Dad would be so mad if he sees her crying. He's a nothing but a monster to me.

But still, Dad forced me to help him for his final campaign. The commercials are finally airing on TV. Pinag uusapan na ako sa buong batch, and it's killing me. It's killing me to hear those things.

But some of my blockmates hates me now. "Baka kaya nakakakuha 'yan ng mataas na grades simula pre-med dahil mayor ang tatay niya?" but my dad's not mayor at that time and i worked so hard to get those grades, to be an Iska. To be a Summacumlaude of our batch.

"Kaya pala lahat ng nasa reviewer niya, nasa exam. Binabayaran pala ng tatay," None of that was true, Madami pang sinasabi sa'kin ngunit hindi ko na lang iniisip, walang totoo sa kahit ano doon.

"You're you, you're nothing like your father," His words comforted me. I saw him doing rallies on TV but that's not important to me. His morals makes him more attractive.

He gave me this cute little note saying,

'im always here :)'

Soon, my dad finally became the governor. I can't believe people believe in him, how can he do that? I don't know how he managed to handle such a big city, knowing that he can't even handle us, his family.

My life turned upside down at school, they treated me like i was disgusting. they treated me like how they treat Dad now... i'm still thankful dahil masiyadong maraming ginagawa sa med school at hindi na nila ko masiyado pinatutungunan ng pansin.