I have never been given a hug like this since my granma died. No one even cared to ask me how was feeling. I know I am being inappropriate in the way I am clinging onto this poor boy, but I really needed this.
He did not let go. If anything, he made the hug tighter, and with each second, I felt better and better.
Then he started patting my back.
"It's OK, Yibo. Just do your best."
I knew if this continued, I would start crying. That's also something I have not done since my granma died.
I pulled away, and he let go without making it awkward.
"Do you feel a little better?"
"Thank you, l do feel a little better."
It wasn't awkward at all. He didn't even seem uncomfortable. Is this because he's....nah! I know a couple of guys who are gay and don't act like this.
"Zhan, can I ask you something?"
"Yeah, sure, go ahead."
"So I am sure you can tell from what I have said, I don't have the best family situation. My family is actually not the warmest you know. So I get very awkward around parents just because I don't know how to relate to my own. Do you mind if I don't come meet your parents tomorrow, I am just scared they may get the wrong impression of me."
"My parents are not shallow like that, for as long as I have known them, I am yet to meet a person that is disliked by them. Don't worry, I won't force you to meet them. If you don't want to, you can just say so."
He said this before the first day I met him, as well. "Just say so, and I will do it."
"You sure do say that a lot."
"Say what?"
"Like if I don't want to do something or want something, I must just say so. Why do you say it so much?"
"Well, isn't that how I can respect your wishes by knowing what they are. If you don't say it, you might live in frustration feeling disregarded."
"How I wish my parents were like that, even if it was for a moment. They never listen, no matter how I communicate or express my feelings."
"I don't know them well enough to say anything about that, but I know that no one is perfect. "
After that, we walked in silence. We got the keys and parted ways without saying much.
Zhan is really a weird guy. He says and does things in ways I don't understand. I almost want to say he is carefree.
That hug from earlier did something to me. I just can't put my finger on it. It's almost like I can't wait to do it again. I really felt whole in his arms. Maybe it's because I have not gone out in a while.
Also, I have to make the dreaded call to my mom. I don't want to move out of the apartment because if I do, I won't stay with Zhan.
She did not even let it ring twice.
"Hi, mom."
["Hi son, why do you sound down? Is everything ok? Our last conversation didn't go so well. Have you reflected on your actions, and now you are calling to apologize?"]
I just rolled my eyes, happy she can't see me.
"Mom, please, let's not keep doing this. I really don't want to fight with you. Like you just said, I am going through a lot at the moment. I called because I have a proposal. I won't be moving out of the apartment because it's close to the university and I won't need a car if I stay there. So what I wanted to discuss with you is monthly rent."
DU LIEST GERADE
Made for me
FanfictionWhat happens when you finally meet the person who completes you, and you believe they were made for you, but you are already spoken for. Taken, and can not do anything about your current situation. Do you let them go and continue with the arranged...