Fighting fires (on pause)

10

Tw: none?

Buck pov

After i clear my head a bit and no longer feel dizzy i try to stand again.

It works and i dont fall back down.

I check my phone and see a bunch of notifications.

I ignore all the notifications.

I leave my room and go to the kitchen.

I check the time on the stove 11:37am

After i start looking around my kitchen for something small to eat for a late breakfast early lunch.

As im looking around my kitchen i see a sticky note on the counter

Dear buck,
Im at work if you need something please call me.
I already called hen and told her to tell bobby you wont be at work today so dont worry about the time. Ill be home around midnight tonight.
Love, maddie.

"Ok." I sigh to myself.

I decide to deal with food later and i go to get in the shower.

I set up a speaker and my phone.

I put on my playlist of songs that mean a lot to me on shuffle.

One song in particular comes on.

'Friends don't' by maddie and tae (you can put the song on but it wont match up perfectly with the scene)

I listen to the lyrics more closely than i usually do.

I think hard about what the lyrics mean.

I think about the wording.

The situation the artist is describing

The song comes to an end.

My playlist continues with other music.

My mind keeps wandering to the lyrics of the pervious song.

Why did it feel personal.

After i get out of the shower i go back to my room and put my headphones in.

I put the song back on my playlist on repeat.

I leave my room and start doing some cleaning around the house while the song plays i my headphones.

The more i listen to it the more i start to think.

Why does this feel personal.

Why do i feel like this song is talking about me.

Why is the only thing i can think of.

I finish cleaning the room and go to sit in the living room.

I sit on the couch with the song still playing in my headphones.

I zone out paying more attention to the lyrics.

'Friends don't talk about the future and out eachother in it'

That lyric stands out to me the most.

What friends dont put each other in the future?

It'd be crazy to think of the future without your friends.

I start listening for more lyrics that stand out to me.

'They don't cancel other plans'

'Friends dont call you in the middle of the night'

'They dont hear each others names and forget to concentrate'

'You can lie to me and say you don't but i know you do.'

Why are those lyrics specifically the ones that stood out.

And why do they still feel so personal.

I turn off the song.

As im turning it off i see the time on my phone.

10:24 pm

How long have i been sitting here.

I get off the couch and go lay down in my bed.

My mind won't shut up.

Why?

Why?

Why? Is all i keep asking myself.

Why these specific lyrics.

Why did it feel personal.

Why, why, why?

Thanks for reading its not great but it works i guess this is also not where i was planning for this to go but i have certain parts of the story I want to write and I am not going to get there unless i speed up the fighting arc so over the next few chapters i think everything should start getting resolved. The parts i want to write will hopefully move slower again btu I'm done with the fighting arc.

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