a new world

Going Back

I'm awaken by the sound of a car driving through our house's fences. Then a number of knocks through the door that echoed in every corner of the small house. I didn't get up thinking that Ben or Alicia might open it now but several minutes later, there is still knocking on the door. I hurriedly went downstairs and open the door. Surprised to see the man I lastly wished to see. Axel. He was looking at his feet which is constantly shifting weights and hands on his pocket. He seemed very unease like he was lifting the weight of the world in his shoulders.

I cleared my throat, making him glance my way. "What are you doing here?"

"I heard from Ben that you're going home maybe in a couple of days."

"Uh huh." Perhaps today. I added in my mind.

"So.. I was thinking if uhm"

I look at him intently. His eyes are doubtful and weary and I don't know. There's so much emotions in his eyes that it's so hard to figure out what his intentions are or what does he want to say.

"I was thinking if you could draw a portrait of me. You know, since you mentioned that you also love painting, maybe I can get one from yours having me as a subject. To serve as a remembrance."

"Am I hearing this right? You want me to paint you?"

"Uhm, yeah. I've got some things you need at my house in case you don't have any here." He said with a beaming smile.

"Alright. Just let me change for a second."

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The drive to their house was very awkward. Well, we've been awkward to each other since the kiss happened. Since he told me that he likes me.
Axel opened the door for me like a complete gentleman and held my hand while we walk through the main door. He brought me to his room and I'm quite surprised to see the painting paraphernalias in one of those big drawers in his office.

"Where are we going to do this?"

I turn to see a deep thinking Axel, looking like he's taking his time deciding where.

"You know I'm completely unprepared but it's cool. I'm a very romantic person so we should do this in my bed, I propose."

"Not in the garden? I mean, there's a nice view. It's brighter than here in your room."

"I bet doing some PG-13 in the garden would cause a number of deaths to some staffs." He said with his usual boyish smirk.

"What are you talking about?"

It took me some time to finally realize what he was meaning to. And God, he's just a perv.

"We're not doing that. What I've been meaning is where am I going to make the portrait."

"I'm just kidding, okay? Of course it'd be in my desk. No handsome gentleman should want a flowery background." And now his laughing hysterically.

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As soon as we finish the portrait, thank goodness his not nagging for the time being I'm painting him, he help me clean the place and arrange his things. I noticed an hourglass in his desk. The sand's almost got all on the lower portion.

"I've never seen that hourglass in your desk a while ago. It could be an interesting background if you put it there sooner."

Axel looked at me with a questioning look. "There's none. I never had an hourglass."

And I started running out. It's the time. It's my time. I run to the way home. Then a car abruptly stop in front of me.

"Atleast give me the pleasure to take you back home." Axel shout like we're thousand milea away. I took the passenger's seat without talking and he drove very fast like he knew what I've been running to.

I immediately get out of the car and enter the house but it seems like Ben and Alicia are still not here. I hurried to my room and found a note telling me to go back where I woke up before. I grab my shoes and a jacket then run back outside. Surprised to see Axel still outside the house, leaning in his car.

"Why are you still here?"

He looks at me and asks. "What's the matter?"

I don't have much time answering his questions instead I head to the forest.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm leaving." I replied without looking back.

"To the forest?" Goodness,why does this man has to be so curious.

"You won't understand."

A hand grabs my arm and he turns me towards him. "Then, at least make me understand." He says with those pleading ocean eyes. He's so beautiful. But as much as I want to stay beside him,I can't. I held his face and kiss him, for the last time. I never believe in love before. And I know it's too soon but I felt it now and I have to admit, it's really something great. "I got to go."

He nods and goes backwards heading back to the house. Looking at him, I know it's the time. I have to go.

I turn my heel around and as soon as I hear a car start and head to the forest. I'm going to see my family too soon. I'm going to see the changes in time, the things around me, the change in me. I started to feel strange. It's like what I felt when I was brought back to life the last time. My surrounding's turning and I'm getting dizzy like I've drunk a couple bottles of vodka alone. I fell to the ground and don't know what is happening anymore.

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I open my eyes just to see nothing but white. I hear a beat from a device in my right that I don't know what they called it. Then I hear a chair being moved.

"Max?" My mother's looking at me with a concerned face. Then she started shouting "She's awake!" and runs outside.

I can't believe this is happening. I'm back. I'm alive again.