WANDER

all night ..

EXCUSE ANY MISTAKES

as i waited for everyone to visit ky'mier in his
room i thought abt what i could say to him.

it was 1 visitor at a time and i wanted to go last .

everyone was leaving his mom was in the room now after her i would go .

making me stop playing with my necklace i looked ups seeing his mom .

she looked down at me seeing my tears , i got up and began walking to the room .

stepping to the doorstep i felt a feeling rush through my body .

as i began to turn i heard my name being called .

" monei ." kado called making me turn around and look at em

" cmere " he said

i walked over to the bed and sat by him ..

the tears just flowed down my face ..

" im sorry " i spoke softly

" for what ?" he asked

" i don't know .. i'm just sorry " i said feeling sorry for him

" r'monei this ain't yo fault ." he said trying to sit himself up .

" i promise it ain't " he said making me wipe my tears

as i sat in the chair beside him i just looked at him

" what were you doing out that early ky ?" i asked as i looked at him

" tryna clear my mind .." he said

" a couple weeks after you went to jail .. i started going to this parking lot .." he said

" when i felt like things were too deep for me to handle i went there ." he say

" then i got caught back up on that drank .. " he said

" now we here "

" ky'mier ts not cool dude ." i said

" you had everybody thinking you wasn't okay and shit " i said wiping my face

" zy told us abt the fight y'all had , you need to stop you know we all care about you ." i said pushing his forehead

" and yk i care about y'all too ." he said grabbing my hand making me look at him

we held eye contact for a while before i felt our heads coming towards each other

" no , you have a gf ky ." i said stopping us

before he could get anything out i got up leaving .

-

a month later...

" kyyyy " i whined ..

we sat in zaxby's parking lot ..

he was eating all my funnel cake up ..

" ts good af ." he said

me and ky had been seeing each other behind everybody's back

i told him i didn't think it was a good idea but he didn't care .

i hadn't did anything sexual with him out of respect for his gf.

" okay you should have got you one ." i said as he crunk the car up .

he didn't say nothing just began driving to his house where we were before .