Avengers One-Shots

Listen Before I Go - Request with Natasha

This was requested from Theylv_Kay
Thank you for all the support and this incredible suggestion. I hope I don't disappoint.
This is also inspired by the song 'Listen before I go' by Billie Eilish.
I hope you enjoy this!

My legs hung over the edge over the rooftop, swinging precariously, not caring if I slipped and fell. A bottle of vodka sat next to me, the only source of company or comfort I had left as the alcohol swirled my blood and tears stained my cheeks. Those moments repeated again and again, over and over, like a broken record.

How could she?

I had made such an effort. I dressed myself up in the most beautiful dress I could find and spent hours on my hair and makeup trying to make myself look perfect for Natasha.

I had the best night with her. We swayed together to long slow songs and jumped around to loud pop and rock songs, our laughter filling the room.

I left her side to get us some more drinks and cocktails.
I left her side for five minutes max.

But when I returned, she was no longer mine.

'If you need me, wanna see me...Better hurry. Cause I'm leaving soon'

I texted Natasha as the feeling of numbness began to swirl over my body like a monster grabbing my ankles and pulling me down to its lair to rip out my heart or something.

I searched everywhere, dashing across the dance floor, dodging happy couples to find my partner.
My girl.
My fiancé.
My Natasha.

My heart broke for the final time when I found her.
Shattering into oblivion.
All the time Nat had wasted mending me, gluing my heart back together with her reassuring words and soft hugs, making me destroy my stone hard walls and trust her made the pain ten times worse.

There she was.

Her arms resting on Wanda's shoulders as she pressed her against the wall, grinding her hips against hers as their lips connected in a more erotic way than ours ever had. Soft whines left their lips as Nat thrusted her strap into Wanda's dripping core as she hushed her and reminded her to keep it down. Her back arched off the wall as Wanda finished with a muffled moan.

I couldn't believe my eyes.

The two glasses slipped from my hand, smashing onto the floor loudly as I stayed staring at them.

My eyes met Nat's as she turned her head quickly.

She stared at me in shock as a single tear fell down my cheek. I brushed it away and walked over to her with a fake smile.

"My best friend Nat? Classy." I tugged off my engagement ring and shoved it into Nat's palm. "We're over!" I shouted. I shoved her into the wall and I left, practically running out of the room, not wanting to crumble in front of her.

"Y/N! Wait! I'm sorry!" Nat chased after me as I ran up the stairs. I stopped and turned around with red eyes and a watery face.

"Sorry can't save me now." I turned away and kept running.

I made it to the roof and locked the door, instructing Jarvis to deny everyone access to the roof.

And that leads to now.

I found Yelena's hidden bottle of Vodka on the roof and had pretty much chugged the damn thing.

I would have done anything to escape the thoughts, the memories, to forget everything.

"Sorry, there's no way out... but down." I stood to my shaky feet and looked down.

A solid drop to the concrete greeted me.
No one could survive that fall.

Perfect!

"Jarvis... call my friends and tell them that I love them. And I'll miss them. Sorry." I whimpered before facing the edge again.

I took one last look at the bright flashing lights of the city before I allowed my feet to leave the edge of the roof.

I fell through the air slower than I thought.
The wind ruffled through my clothes and tangled my hair as I got closer and closer to the floor.
I gasped as my back hit the concrete and I shut my eyes.

The pain slipped away and I let out my final exhale, relaxing for all of eternity.

Nat POV

"Ambulance, please!" I sobbed into the phone as I ran over to Y/N's pale and blood covered body. "My fiancé jumped off the roof." I muttered as I grabbed her warm hand which was slowly getting colder.

I squeezed it desperately and dropped the phone, only wanting to feel her soft skin against mine, knowing it would be the last time.

"No!" I screamed with all my might, knowing it was all my fault. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Y/N, I'm so so sorry!" I whimpered as I covered her in kisses, pressing my lips to her knuckles, cheeks and her lips.

Loud sirens blasted their way down the streets, like a siren or some kind of warning. A threat to everyone near.

"Sorry won't save you now." I whispered as I looked at Y/N.

The love of my life and I threw it all away for Wanda.
Not only had I hurt Y/N after promising I never would.
I had an affair with Y/N's best friend.
It took Y/N three years until she fully trusted me as she was hurt so many times in the past.

I sat with her during her panic attacks and calmed her after breakdowns and all I did to show my love for her after this rough road was cheat on her.

A loud scream ripped from my throat as rain started to pour and the ambulance pulled up, taking my girl away forever.

"There's no way out... only down." I whispered as I looked up at the rooftop. "I'll see you in a minute baby."