Our Story [MileBible]

chapter 22

BIBLE POV:-

The next hour passed In a blur, the police and paramedics arrived and Jeff also came as I left him a call.
Prepping me with questions and medical checkups and lots of somber looking faces, I endured them all, my answers flat and robotic
By the time they finished, I wanted to crawl to my bed and never get out
If could bring myself to move
"Bible? The police said we can go home" Jeff said as he placed a hand on my arm
"I need to talk to kinn, first"
"Bible, I'm not sure if that's a good idea-"
I ignored him, I stepped around him and walked towards kinn
Keeping the blanket EMT gave me wrapped tight around my shoulders
One foot Infront of the others
This entire days felt surreal
I kept thinking if it was a new kind of nightmare
The story came out in pieces and half truths
I wasn't sure on what to talk to kinn
He was, after all, the consummate liar, right? Or had he been lying about lying?
I stopped Infront of kinn, he looked like the old kinn again, unruffled and uncaring
"I thought you would've left by now" kinn said as his hand slid his hands into his pockets
"I wanted to know"
He lifted a brow
"You and me..was any of it, real?"
Kinn stilled as I held my breathe, hoping and praying
"I tried to warn you, sweetheart" his face impassive
"I told you not to romanticize me, to harden that soft heart. It was my one courtesy for the kindness you've shown me for the years, but you fell for me anyway" his jaw tightened
"Consider it as a lesson for the future, pretty words and pretty faces don't equal pretty souls"
My hope turned into ashes
My soft heart? No. I didn't have a heart at all, not anymore
He had torn it out if my chest,sliced it to the ribbons with the blades of his words and tossed the shreds aside without a second thought
I might've stood there forever, I gentle hand guided me to a car as I still had a shock ok my face and kinn didn't tried to stop me or even say anything.
I couldn't remember why this season was my favorite anymore, everything looked dull and gray..so lifeless, there it started raining the tiny drops sprinkling over the window like scatter shot crystals, I remember the day kinn picked me up when I was stranded in the rain, and I broke down.
All my pent up emotion from the past few hours, the past few months burst forth at the same time, I was an ant swept up in a tidal wave and I didn't bother fighting
Somehow I found myself in Jeff's embrace while he stroked my hair and murmured soothing sounds
Why was it always me?
What about me made me so damn unlovable?
"My favorite color
Black.
My favorite ice cream.
Chocolate
You are the light to my dark sunshine
Without you,I'm lost"
Lies, all of it.
Every kiss, every words, every second that I had treasured..tainted
My eyes burned with liquid fire, I couldn't breathe
Everything hurt from the outside to the inside as I sobbed terrible, wretched, soul wracking tears
My father had lied to Me,kinn lied to me. Not for days,weeks, or months..but for years
Something inside me broke, and I was no longer the only crying for my shattered heart but for the boy I used to be, the one who believed in light and loved the goodness of the world
That guy was gone.