£21 - sweetheart, i hate myself ⚠️

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NOTE: Hello. This is a warning that this chapter has topics that can trigger you in one way or another. Please read with an open mind and understand that I do not intend to put people, especially priests or nuns, into a bad light. What you are about to read is not a representation to every priest or nuns out there. Please do understand that this is just fiction. I am not making generalizations so please do not apply what you are about to read in this chapter in real life. But, though I said this is fiction, the scenarios in this chapter do happen in real life but not all the time. You can skip to the second scene breaker (✞ £ ✞) if you find it hard to read. And, you can also correct me if you find it wrong and disturbing.


TW: Sexual violence & exploitation, child abuse, violence, self harm, and suicidal ideation.


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I hate myself.


I know I'm not likable. I'm not someone who anyone would stick out for. And I am aware of that fact.


Ang daming rason para kaayawan ako ng ibang tao. Madalas, wala naman akong pake. Hindi ko na sila iniisip dahil kinasusuklaman ko na ang sarili ko. I already hate myself enough that I don't need to listen to others.


I am aware of everything yet I don't change anything. Well, most of what people don't like about me are something I can't really change like my being an orphan.


But so what? Anong pake ko sa iba?


'Yan ako noon bago ko makilala si Alistair.


"LJ."


Lumingon ako kay Sister Noel na papalapit sa akin. Malaki ang ngiti nito at abot hanggang langit. Para siyang nanalo sa lotto. Nanalo kaya siya? Kinukwento pa naman niya sa amin na kapag nanalo siya, pupunta siya ng ibang bansa ta's kukwentuhan niya kami.


"Po?" Binaba ko ang clay na hinuhulma ko. Minsan lang ako makapaglaro ng clay. Madalang kasi magkaroon ng ganito rito.


Lumuhod si Sister Noel sa tabi ko at tinignan ang aking ginagawa. "Ang ganda naman niyang gawa mo."


Nabalik ang tingin ko sa hinulma kong aso gamit ang clay. Agad na sumilay ang malawak na ngiti sa labi ko. Kinuha ko ang aso sa sahig at pinakita ito kay Sister.

sweetheart, where's my reward?Tahanan ng mga kuwento. Tumuklas ngayon