so um
hi
this is not a cobra kai one shot, but hear me out
I need to get some shit off my chest, this is the best I could come up with? hopefully I'm going to be able to write it in a way that you can imagine pretty much any character with it? idk, but I need this shit out
enjoy?! or don't ig lol
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I thought I was fine. I was fine. I was completely fine. Then I woke up one day, and I wasn't anymore. And suddenly it wasn't buried deep in the perfect little box in my chest splattered with blood and tears.
Suddenly I woke up one day and I couldn't breathe. I could feel your arm around my neck, the tightness of your iron grip, and I couldn't breathe, even without anything around me this time. I was free and loose and tight and short on breath.
All I can feel anymore is your arm around my neck, the rawness of my throat after screaming to be let go. And you didn't. Neither of you did. I screamed and begged and the sound was cut off and I couldn't breathe.
I was shaky and hesitant and terrified and no kid should be scared of their parents. Tears were running down my face, my eyesight was blurry, and my neck was red. I couldn't breathe, nothing was stopping me.
I can't eat anymore. I can't make myself eat anymore
I can barely make myself breathe. I can't breathe
How can you not understand what you've done to me? To your little boy?
How can you stand there and tell me you love me and tell me you want a hug and say you didn't mean it and that you love me
how can I stand here and tell you I love you and hug you
I can't breathe
I can't fucking breathe
my hand is fisted against my chest tears are in my eyes air is frozen in my throat and
I can't breathe.
this is your fault.
I am looking at you. Look at me.
LOOK AT ME.
Look into my empty, crying eyes. Look at the red skin around my neck. Look at the bloody wounds on my wrist. Look at how I panic, at how I can't breathe. Look at how I can lie so well and tell you I love you I'm not afraid I love you I love you I fear you I fear you you scare me I'm scared I can't say anything
LOOK AT ME.
LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE.
Watch me, unable to breathe.
Watch me, at how I panic and must leave the things I love must break from them to do something as simple as breathe.
Because once you made it so I couldn't.
Do you remember-?
LOOK AT ME.
Because once, one time, you made it so I couldn't breathe. You made me scream and I don't scream. You made me beg and I don't beg.
Now I must spend the rest of my life relearning how to breathe.
I must relearn how to go through a day without panicking and holding my neck making sure your arm isn't there.
I must relearn how to breathe, something I've been doing since day one. All the way up until that cold night, when I couldn't.
How could you do this to me?
Your child?
You're supposed to love me.
Not kill me.
LOOK AT ME.
"Do you see what you've done?" Listen to me ask you in my damaged, rasped voice. Watch the tears as they never end.
Listen to me laugh, because anything else will kill me. Listen to me giggle and cheer and dance brokenly in ragged motion because of you for you
"Are you proud of me?"
I want you afraid
Are you proud? My monster is bigger than yours. You can't hurt me again. But that owie still hurts. Maybe you can hurt me again? Wanna try? (I know you do. You always do.)
I want you afraid of what you've done to me. And isn't that weird? I don't think anyone should have to be afraid but
giggling and mad inside oh dear father I want you afraid
and I almost don't care what that does to you
HOW CAN YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME
when you don't.
Because it's not love for a person that makes you
choke them
keep them from breathing
make them afraid
traumatize them
because that's what you did.
this is trauma, here
I am afraid. I tell you I love you. I'm afraid. But I'm the monster? I'm the bad guy?
I can't breathe
are you proud of the broken and bleeding and empty thing standing in front of you?
Mommy? Daddy? Don't you understand what you've done?
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I'm sorry
-ghosted
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