Blur memories

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Y/N:
Let's break up.

[Y/N said while cutting Cheol's words all of a sudden, and this is the least Cheol wants to hear in this life. Y/N's sudden words shocked Cheol.]

Cheol:
W-what? What did you just say?

Y/N:
Let's break up Coups.

[Y/N said while her back was facing Cheol.]

Cheol:
Why?

[The word came out as a whisper when a tear streamed down through his eyes.]

Y/N:
I thought that we were best friends, and if we date, we'll be happy with each other. Yes, I used to love you in the past, and I'm sorry that I'm the one who is breaking up, but I can't control my heart. No one can. We can't force our hearts to do something we don't want.

[Cheol didn't blurt out a single word. He just silently listens to Y/N.]

Cheol:
When did you realize?

Y/N:
What?

Cheol:
Your feelings for me ........ When did you realise that you don't love me anymore?

Y/N:
Some months ago, that's why I stopped talking to you. I wanted to think things through to know what I really wanted.

Cheol:
So this is what you want?

[Cheol shook while tears were flowing from his eyes. Y/N saw how broken Cheol was in front of her. His body was lifeless.]

Y/N:
I-I'm sorry, Coups. I really don't want to hurt you. I still care for you, but I have to end this relationship or you'll get more hurt than you are right now.

Cheol:
No, we didn't properly start dating. You're feeling like this because of this long-distance relationship. Y/N, please, you're here now. Let's give it a try. We can overcome this hurdle. Don't leave me like this.

Y/N:
Please, Coups, don't make it harder for me than it already is. Please don't do this. Don't make me feel guilty more than I already am. Just go.

Cheol:
Y/N am i a joke to you? When your heart wanted, you talked to me, when your heart wanted, you turned away from me. When you thought you liked me, then you accepted me. When you thought you didn't like me, you left me like a cruel person. Where am I in all of this? It's just you. It seems that there was never us in this relationship, It was always me all alone trying my best to make this work. Have you ever thought about me? How i feel? I can get hurt too you know. I'm a human as well Y/N.

[Y/N didn't said anything Cheol hugged Y/N from behind tightly.]

Cheol:
Please, just once, I'll assure you everything will be alright.

Y/N:
Co-Coups let me go.

Cheol:
No, I don't want to let you go.

[Y/N pushed Cheol pretty hard, and he bumped his head on the bed's corner. When everyone hears noises, they come into Y/N's room and find Y/N sitting in the corner hugging her legs while crying and shivering. She blurted only one word, which surprised everyone.]

Y/N:
Hao *sobs* Hao help me. Please.

[Minghao quickly ran towards Y/N and hugged her tightly, and this shocked everyone and hurt Cheol, but the most painful thing Cheol witnessed was that Y/N stopped whimpering as soon as Minghao hugged her. He was hurt, but now he understands everything. He can see how Minghao's simple touch calms Y/N, and in that second, he understands that he is nowhere in Y/N's life anymore and there's not a single chance for him to get Y/N back. He understands that he has already lost his love to someone else.

He's no longer important in Y/N's life. Tears were flowing from Cheol's eyes constantly. He was hurt but still worried about why his touch made Y/N go crazy. But now it's not his place to worry about Y/N anymore because there is already someone else who holds her tight and comforts her. He got up from the ground and walked out of the house while ignoring everyone. Y/N calmed down, and Minghao broke the hug and took Y/N to the bed and gave her a glass of water.

Everyone has lots of questions now, and Y/N can see that everyone's eyes are asking her numerous questions. Why did she push Cheol? Why did she become a crying mess? What happened between her and Cheol? How did Minghao's simple touch calm her down? Everyone wants to know, but she isn't ready yet. She doesn't want to say anything now. Even after one year, right now isn't the right time for her to say anything. She's still not brave enough to tell anyone anything.]

Y/N:
I'm okay now, everyone. You can go now.

Hyejin:
But Y/N....

[Y/N shakes her head and speaks.]

Y/N:
Not yet Hyejin-a some other time. When I gather my courage, I'll tell everyone everything. I'm not ready yet. I need time. I know you guys have lots of questions, and I'll give you every answer, but not right now. I don't have that much confidence.

[No one said anything and left the room when Joshua petted Jeonghan's shoulder and gave him a warm smile.]

Joshua:
Give her some time. She'll eventually tell you when the time comes. Sometimes silence is better than speaking. Maybe the weight of the words she's carrying on her shoulders is heavier and harsher than you can imagine. Maybe she's afraid that it might hurt her again if she said something.

Jeonghan:
She's my sister, Shua. How can I calm down after seeing her like that?

Joshua:
Still, you need to understand that she needs time. Time is all that matters right now. Just give her some space.

Jeonghan:
How can I? Didn't you see how hurt she was a few seconds ago? If your sister happened to be in pain just like her, would you be okay with her silence? Oh! How can you feel my pain? You don't have a sister. Damn, you don't even have a real family. You can't understand my pain.

[Jeonghan said in frustration and tension that he didn't realise what he just said. A tear fell from Joshua's eyes. A real family has always been a sensitive topic for Joshua to discuss, and Jeonghan just hit him on his weak spot. When Jeonghan realised what he just said, he felt sorry for the younger because this wasn't what he wanted to say. It just suddenly came out of his mouth. Joshua was hurt, and Jeonghan saw that in Joshua's eyes.]

Jeonghan:
Baby, I'm sorry. I didn't mean that. I'm really sorry; it just came out of my mouth.

[Joshua didn't say anything; he just looked at Jeonghan with tears and slapped him.]

Joshua:
It's been four years. You know me from for years. How can you do this? I have to go now.

[With that said, Joshua rushed out of the house without giving Jeonghan a chance to speak. Jeonghan knows that he fucked up big times.]

Jeonghan:
Damn it!

[Jeonghan kicked the table beside him in anger and ran his finger through his hair.]