𝙌𝙪𝙞𝙚𝙩 𝙎𝙤𝙪𝙡. [ПРОДЪЛЖЕНИЕ]- ONGOING.

40. Afraid

To be feared or to fear?
It is something I never wanted to choose .
How can I get stronger back then when I chose to be alone , standing on the edge of someone else's faith?
What's the matter of being something I don't know yet but I can control for awhile ?
If I could go back in time and if I could stay longer , and they keep asking me "What are you afraid of?" :

I'm afraid of sunlight not to burn my feet ,
Afraid to be the light they always meet ,
Because I know I used to pretend to be me ,
Afraid of letting go the pain I used to seal ,
It is enough for me to make me feel joy .
I refuse to think I'm the one changing me ,
Because again , I'm afraid of doing it ,
Because I think that I might be lost in it ,
Like before - betrayed and poor for creativity .

I am afraid to lose the power of wisdom ,
because they are home to my window ,
my sorrow is their longed best friend ,
I'm afraid they'll separate and go to an end
Where I will find myself in two different worlds ,
So cold , so dark , I might never fix myself .

"That's why -I said - those words can not shut me down but to be something I don't see myself in it, is worse than feeling sick of things . "