Goodbye Kiss

27. Beyond Repair

Beyond Repair
Season 8 x 11
January 2002:

"so, how was your new year's eve?" luka asked me
"i worked the night shift" i sighed
"oh"
"how about you?"
"not eventful"
"any resolutions this year?"
he shook his head "i don't believe in those"
"me either"
"hard to find hope in this place"
"i need a break" i laughed
"yeah-"
"i'm getting one soon"
i turned to look at him "really?"
"europe" he nodded
"what's in europe?"
"bosnia, helping out some friends over there" he smiled
"wow"
"any place but here" i smiled, looking out the window. it had to be at least below thirty outside.

"gianna" abby whispered
"what's up?"
"paul sobreki came in"
i raised my eyebrows "what?"
"yeah"
"he's in curtain three"
"you're kidding"
"can you do me a favour and keep carter away from there"
paul sobreki was the schizophrenic who killed a medical student and stabbed carter a few years back.
"of course"
she rolled her eyes "lewis wants a head ct"
"she better make it quick" i laughed
"that's what i said" abby sighed
i walked down to the drug lockup with a box to stock up on.
"can you check headaches vitals?" mark asked
"sure" i smiled
"also"
"do you have any advice for me"
"on what?"
"rachel is doing drugs"
i leaned against the stock cart.
"well, from what i've heard, and what you've told me these past few weeks-"
"it sounds like rachel needs to be grounded for awhile" i smiled
"she just doesn't listen" mark groaned
"talk to her"
"make her feel comfortable and supported"
"but, make sure she's being safe"
"okay"
i walked in the exam room
"i wasnt the best teenager"
"drank, smoked, partied"
i shook my head "but my ma gave me a talk"
"she grounded me"
"taking away and not allowing the thing i wanted to do was what made me learn that it was bad"
"i started actually caring about my future"
"and look at me now" i smiled
"alright, i'll sit down with her later"
"bp is 110 over 70" i nodded
"alrighty" he smiled, scribbling into the chart.
i walked over to the admit desk.
"what do you got there?" i asked john
"stomach ache in three?" he read
i looked up at him, nervous "gallant had that one a minute ago"
"really?"
i rubbed my eyes "i think i made two charts by accident"
"okay"
that was a lie.
"diaherra in exam one it is"
i took the other chart, hiding it behind my back.
i titled my head,
"how great" he smiled sarcastically
i made a beeline down the hall. susan was talking to sobreki's psychiatrist.
"i want you to get the restraints off of him" he told her
"excuse me" i smiled
"this patient killed a med student and almost killed another doctor"
"ma'am,"
"he's getting treatment"
"how do we know this isn't gonna happen again?"
"gianna" susan whispered
"i'm sorry, but this hospital needs to start acting professional"
"treat this patient with some respect"
"gianna, this patients foley is oozing" gallant said
"clamp it off" i shouted
"i did"
"i'll be there in a minute" i pointed
"treat this patient with respect?"
"how about you put yourself in dr. carters shoes?"
"a few years ago this man killed a student"
"and everyone's saying we shouldn't care about that?"
"i need you to back away" he said
"im not going to stand here and let this happen"
"just get the ct and send him off already"
"god" i scoffed
i walked into the trauma room
"sorry about that" i smiled, putting on a fresh pair of gloves.
"it's okay" gallant nodded
i grabbed a waste jug from the cabinet.
"make sure you get the potassium"
"that's right" he smiled
"ok, i'll be right back"
i unscrewed the foley bag
"is this from the fertility drugs?" the patient asked
"i don't know yet" i whispered
"you know" she smiled, i could see her eyes tearing up so i grabbed a tissue
"all these hormones are making me emotional"
"im not usually like this"
"it's okay" i nodded
"i should've just kept it the first time"
"you were pregnant before this?"
"yeah"
"happy in a new relationship"
she shook her head "it wasn't the right time"
"i understand"
"you know, you're raised thinking every time you have sex you'll get pregnant"
"but when you actually try to get pregnant, you can't"
"i spent a long time trying to find mr right but now look at me" she smiled
"it's so unfair"
"i'm sorry"
"nothing you can do"
"just don't waste your time in life" she said
"there's nothing you did that ruined this"
"good is coming your way" i added
"you think?"
"i know"
"you'll get your little miracle someday"
she smiled, wiping another tear away.
"gallant will be back soon"
i walked back into the hallway
"can you order labs on my diaherra patient?" carter asked
"sure" i nodded
when i saw who was sitting on the hallway, i pulled carter closer to the trauma rooms
"carter" i said, taking a deep breath, he gave me a confused look.
i looked him dead in the eyes "john, follow me"
i pulled on his collar.
but his eyes went wide by the voice behind him. he heard sobreki.
"john"
god, i was now sweating.
"dr. carter" sobreki smiled
"im so sorry about you and your friend"
i turned around
"you see, that wasn't me"
"it's a disease, you know that" he smiled
"what're you doing here?" carter asked
"paul slipped on ice outside his office building" his wife spoke
"office building?" carter scoffed
"you're out?"
"i was released, im better now"

carter ran off to the bathroom, i followed him. when i opened the doors, he knelt over the toilet and puked. so, i rubbed his back.
"john, i'm sorry" i whispered
"you should go home"
"i'm fine"
"i'm off in a half an hour"
"okay" i nodded
he left out of the bathroom, and i drew blood from his diaherra patient.
"so, he saw sobreki?" susan asked
"yeah"
"i'm sorry"
i shrugged my shoulders "it was gonna happen"
"sorry for lashing out in the hallway"
she shook her head "you were protecting carter"
"nothing wrong with that i guess, huh?"
"not at all" she shrugged
"abby's pretty mad about it, too"
"yeah" i sighed
"it ruined him"
"abby, me, the whole hospital knows that"
"better get these up to the lab" i shrugged
she nodded her head.
——
"sobrekis wife wanted to give you this" abby said, handing an envelope to carter.
we were all in the lounge.
"she didn't even want to look me in the eyes"
"i'm off in ten if you guys want to grab some coffee" abby shrugged
"i gotta go check on gamma, it's her first day with the home nurse" carter whispered
"i can meet you guys at docs, though"
"okay" i nodded
"i'll wait for you to get off" i told abby
"i'll take inventory or something"
"sounds good" she smiled

"so, how was your day?"
i took a sip of coffee and abby took a drag on a cigarette.
"it's my birthday" she laughed
"happy birthday" i exclaimed
she raised her eyebrows "it's not really been happy"
"sent a kid to a social worker because his mom died and weaver didn't tell him"
"carter seeing his attacker again"
she tilted her head "lukas going to bosnia?"
"oh and my ex husband is getting remarried"
"and the fact that i can't sleep since my new neighbours fight all night long" she smiled
i raised my eyebrows "wow"
"i'm sorry"
"i guess a black cloud is following you"
she shrugged her shoulders
"i never liked birthdays anyways"
"sorry you have to spend this one with me" i smiled
"no, you seem to be the only one who isn't a problem in my life"
"i'm glad" i smiled
"yeah, me too"

a/n: hey! did you see the eclipse yesterday? i did, it was pretty cool. i hope you enjoyed this part... i feel bad for carter, huh? i feel bad for abby here, too. i really liked susan's character in early seasons, and was really happy when she came back this season, but i hated how she was here.. especially because her and carter were a thing on the show here. i feel like it was sort of out of her character, and she was being completely rude and ignorant towards carters trauma. idk. i loved susan, but the writers ruined her when she came back ;(( things are getting exciting and it's making me so excited. so, stay tuned!!