Goodbye Kiss

34. Brothers and Sisters

Brothers and Sisters
Season 8 x 19
Late April, 2002:

abby stayed with me an extra few days since she had a bunch of things to move over. carter drove me to her apartment to drop off a box for her.
when i knocked on the door, i was answered by luka, who took the box from me.
"is abby in there?" i smiled
she walked toward the doorway.
"getting settled in again" she smiled
"i can see that" carter muttered from behind me. then, she hid her bottle of beer behind her back.
"anyways, we got shifts to start"
"see you soon" luka waved
"bye now"
as i closed the door, carter was already down the stairs.
"wait for me"
he let out a scoff.
"what?"
"she's drinking!" he shouted
"five o'clock somewhere" i shrugged
"no, gianna"
he was angry.
i made a confused face.
"she's an addict" he said, slamming his car door.
"what?"
"when i was going through rehab, she was my sponsor"
we were now driving toward the hospital.
i was silent.
"was she drinking at your place?"
i shook my head "i never saw her drink a thing"
"was anything missing from your kitchen?"
"i don't know"
"i didn't know she had a problem"
"she was, wasn't she?"
"john, i never saw her take a sip of alcohol at my apartment"
"and i don't know why you're getting upset at me about this"
"i'm not upset at you"
"but you're angry"
i looked out the window.
"you can't help people who don't want your help"
he shook his head "it's not like that"
"you don't know what it feels like to be at such a low point"
"no matter how many times you say you don't need help-"
"okay"
i didn't know what it felt like to have an addiction and i saw carters point of view. really, the problem to me was how much he cared about abby. him and abby have been an ongoing issue in our relationship. it may sound selfish to some but i wanted the same level of care that he gave abby. we'd be going fine for weeks, but if something happened to abby, he'd go running to her.
and it was clear that carter wanted her.
i felt stupid for not coming to terms with that, yet because i knew it from the moment he went to oklahoma.
we parked in front of the hospital and i got out of his car, walking into the doors of the er.
"decided to show up again?" i smiled, looking at pratt.
he gave me an angry look "it's not like i have a choice"
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"gianna" susan panted
"what's up?"
"can you take these charts for me and pass them off?"
"sure, are you okay?"
i took the charts from her hands.
"my sister and niece are missing"
"oh my god"
"anyways"
"i'll pray for you"
"thanks"
i got up off my stool and walked down the hallway, scanning her charts.
"hey, chen"
"gianna?"
"can you take one of susans patients?"
i handed her the charts
"let's see"
she read them all
"i'll take the abdominal pain"
"thank you" i smiled
i walked into an exam room
"sorry"
"luka, can you take susan's heartburn patient?"
"sure"
i ended up giving carter susans diaherra patient. he wasn't too happy, to say the least.

it was a pretty boring day in the er. i stocked the trauma rooms and drug lockup.
but, before i knew it, it was time to go back home.
carter and i never really spoke a word after this morning, out of sight, out of mind, am i right?
i road the l back to my apartment.
now, i unscrewed the cap off of a bottle of vodka, pouring it into a shaker.

a/n: sorry for this short/boring part today, i was going to add more to it but didn't know how to make it more interesting. not sure if this particular episode was my favourite either, lol. i am going on vacation tomorrow, so i apologize if scheduling is off. i'll still put our parts on thursday and saturday, but timing might be off. bare with me!! and enjoy, xx