The Outsiders Imagines

01// Johnny Cade Imagine

This imagine is for liliamck hope you like it!!

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"Johnny?" I asked when I walked into our home holding our two year old, Brynn. We got married seven years ago on this very day, July 27th, 2008.

"Johnny? Honey where are you?" I asked again. I walked through out the house and couldn't find him anywhere. I remembered one room I forgot to check, Johnny's and my room. I opened the door slowly to reveal a still body on the bed. It was Johnny.

I gasped and slammed the door shut. Tears were swelling my eyes and I slumped against the wall. No, this couldn't be happening! Not on our anniversary!

"What's wrong, mommy?" Brynn asked.

"Oh sweetie, nothing to worry about. How about we go watch tv down stairs?" I tried to smile.

"But what happened to daddy?"

"Daddy's just sleeping right now. Your favorite show is on!" I turned the tv on and place Brynn on the couch.

I walked back upstairs and opened the door again. Johnny was still lying there. I took a step closer to him and noticed something in his hand, a pill container.

"Johnny! You can't die on me. I love you too much to live without you. Please, just say something. A word, anything." I begged.

I was bawling by now, soaking Johnny's shirt. He wouldn't wake up, no matter how much I wanted him to. He is gone. My husband is dead.

I sat on the edge of the bed, replaying all the memories I had with him. The first day we met, our first date, our wedding, the birth of our child, who most likely will never have any memories of Johnny when she is older. Just pictures as proof.

After a couple of minutes, I heard some moaning. I quickly got up and looked at Johnny for any signs of life. None. It must have just been my imagination. But then again, more moaning. This time, I saw Johnny twitch. He wasn't dead! I watched him as he opened his eyes and they filled with tears.

"I'm so sorry, Lilia." He whispered. "I didn't mean to."
"It's okay, baby. Let's get you to the hospital." I said through cries.

I grabbed Brynn and gave her to our neighbor. Johnny was in the car laying motionless across the back seat. I hoped he wouldn't die on the way. I don't know when he took the pills so it could be too late. I drove go the hospital and explained to a doctor what happened. They took him into a room with me following and gave him some shots that would make him throw up the pills. He was awake again so he answered the doctor on how many pills he took. 3 pills. Johnny luckily threw them all up but he had to stay at the hospital for another three days to make sure he was okay.

"I'm so sorry, Lilia. I wasn't thinking at the moment." Johnny cried.
"I thought I lost you." Tears were coming out of my eyes and trickling down my cheek like a waterfall.
"I didn't want to live anymore. I thought I was worth nothing. I took the pills but after I swallowed, I thought of you and Brynn and what I would be doing to you two. I would've crushed your lives, making them horrible. If I didn't survive, Brynn would have to grow up with no dad. If I didn't survive, you would have to be a widow. If I didn't survive..." Johnny started.
"Stop talking about what would happen if you didn't survive," I said. "What matters is that your here now and you want to be." I started to bawl.
"I promise I won't ever do something this stupid again." Johnny replied. "I love you, Lilia."
"I love you too." I responded.