Avu wiped of her tears before turning around.
Sm1: You know what? You do not have to do that
Avu gave out a wet chuckle and turned around.
Avu: What are you doing here Akshit? Go and enjoy the party
Akshit: Well I can ask you the same
Avu sighed.
Akshit: By the way Avi at least congratulate him. He achieved something so great and everyone was their to celebrate his success except his best friend. Don't you think usko kitna burs laga hoga?
Avu: Best friend to tum bhi ho hi na
Akshit: I know that but what you matter to him like no one else does
Avu: By the way where is Hazel?
Akshit: Well you know how badly she wanted to meet Sid and the party was almost over so I let her just go. I thought kyu rulate rehna usko and I thought you also need someone. A friend maybe
Avu smiled and nodded.
Avu: Thanks for coming
Akshit: Uski zaroorat nhi hai
They sat down on grass in comfortable silence just gazing at the moon and stars for sometime when Akshit finally decided to break this silence and talk about what Avu would never do on her own.
Akshit: See Avni I can clearly see and understand what you are feeling
Avu: Akshit I guess it is late. I should take Hazel and leave. She also must be tired
She was about to get up but Akshit held her wrist and made her sit down back.
Avu: Akshit....
Akshit: (cuts her) Till when are you planning to run away hnn?
Akshit said looking into her eyes.
Avu: I am not running away from anything. You are just being paranoid. Nothing else
She said looking everywhere but him. Basically trying to avoid the eye contact with him.
Akshit: Okk say that by looking straight into my eyes then
When she did not look up, he himself held her chin and made her look into his eyes but delicately making sure not to hurt her. Her eyes were wet.
Akshit: According to you, you are totally fine. But Avni your eyes speak a complete different stories. You know what you do not have to voice out your thoughts for me to know what is going inside you. I know you so well that I can just read your eyes. I have been in love with you for so long and so deeply that I can read these eyes of yours very easily now. You can't hide things from me so easily. You can't get away from me by lying because I know you inside out
Avu: Akshit please I do not want to talk about anything now
Akshit: Okk do not talk to me. But at least share your feelings with Sid
Avu: What feelings?
Akshit: Whatever you have in your heart for him
Avu: I do not know what you are talking
She said quickly getting up but he again made her sit.
Akshit: Stop running away from your feelings. Please
Avu: Okk. See he is seeing someone already right? So what is even the point of all this
Akshit: Can you just for one moment just think about yourself and your feelings for him? I am just asking you to accept your feelings for him and I know you are well aware of your feelings because it is not happening first time with you. You have already gone through all this. So it is not that difficult for you to recognize these feelings
Avu: Yes I have gone through all this before. I have fucking experienced each of these feelings before. I know how everything feels. That's why I do not want to experience any of these ever again in my life. I do not want to suffer once again. I do not wish to be left heartbroken once again. I do not want to feel those beautiful feelings of love and let them grow to an extent that I am again left broken once again. I know whatever I have gone through earlier Akshit. I very well know that unbearable pain and I really do not have the courage to experience all that once again
She stopped for a moment. Her face was completely filled with tears because of all the pain and screaming. And then she started but this time in a low tired voice.
Avu: This time if I again have a heartbreak, I would be broken beyond repair Akshit. And I cannot afford that to happen at any cost. Not just for myself but because I have that small girl who is my responsibility. I promised my brother while he was dying that I would take care of her till my last breath. And if anything happened to me who is gonna take are of her. That's why I am trying to just burry those feelings deep inside my heart and never let them grow. So that they can just vanish out as soon as possible
To be continued
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FanfictionA collaboration ff with @_Simran_N_ PROMISES and TRUST Precious words on which many relationships stand. Trust is the root of every relationship. Trusting her with his life, he asked for a promise on his deathbed. She gave him her words. She let him...
