Twisted Reincarnation

58 (The Other Side)

*Original Chantal Louise Madrigal*

It's painful. Finally, I no longer have to live like this anymore.  I wonder what did I ever do wrong. Why did my life turn out like this. From that evil Amanda, to that witch Alessa, to the man I loved with all I had. I never had a good memory in my life time. The world was never kind to me. I tried so hard all the time. I had to defend myself and rely to no one but myself. I never had anything I truly own but myself. Even that, wasn't fully mine. My name is not really mine. Namatay na lamang ako na hindi nalaman ang tunay kong pangalan. I had to live with the identity she crafted. That wench Amanda did everything to control me. When she died, I felt relieved. Pakiramdam ko ay nakalaya ako sa mabigat na kadenang nakabalot sa aking buong pagkatao. I change my surname after her death and start my own career. I did everything without any help of her influence. I did it all.

When I met Shawn, I felt like I had my salvation. I don't know why but I'm drawn to him. I want him so bad. Kahit wala syang gawin ay nahuhumaling ako sa kanya. I didn't realize that my obsession with him will cost me my sanity. I did crazy thing just to have him. I know he doesn't like virgins so I pretend and act like a slut. I did that just so I can have a piece of him.  Besides, ako lamang ang pinakamatagal nyang naging kahook up. For him, ayun lamang ako but for me he's everything. I thought I am satisfied with it not until Alessa came into the picture. She had him just with  her countless stupid and clumsy act. I went mad. I couldn't accept it. She's far more inferior than me. I am something while she's just a mere janitress. How dare her take what's mine.

Perhaps, my inferiority complex and my obsessiveness made me do unforgivable things to her. I made her life a living hell. I did all things just to ruin her. I didn't succeed. Hindi ko matanggap na hindi nya ko magawang tingnan sa paraang binibigay nya kay Alessa. I couldn't accept it. I known him first. I had him first.

I'm willing to give and give up everything just to have him but he didn't want me at all. He will never want me the way I want him. Siguro dahil hindi ko matanggap na hanggang doon lamang kami ay ibinuhos ko ang lahat ng sisi kay Alessa. I regret it. I shouldn't have. Shawn ruined my life afterwards ng malaman nya na balak kong ibigay si Alessa sa mga lalake. He was really mad as he put a big scar on my face and ruined my career. He told me that if I ever remove that scar he'll hunt me down and will put a more vicious one. He made me feel unwanted to the point that I can feel his disgust into my core.

I swallow my pride and took over the inheritance I had from Amanda but I got tricked by the wicked heiress of the corporation. Maybe, I am blinded with my hatred that's why I fell from her petty tricks. I moved on from it.

Funny enough, I had a friend after that. She's a jolly girl contrary to me. For the first time, I trusted someone. She told me na we should be business partner and so we did. I shouldn't have because it was all a scam. She took all my money and left me with a huge amount of debt. Everything become unbearable. I lost everything and there is nothing left on me. Maybe, I made all the wrong choices from the start. Maybe, I'm not supposed to be alive. I don't know how to live anymore. I smile bitterly as I end my life in a dark, small room.

At last, I am free.

Or so I thought.

"Anak, sa wakas gising ka na! Dali tawagin nyo ang doctor." A teary woman with a shaky voice is now looking at me with mix emotion. There are 2 man beside her and they are both speechless as they cry. Weird.

The woman urge the younger man to go out and look for a doctor.

'Where am I?' I look around and I think I am at the hospital. Tiningnan ko ang sarili ko only to find out na my body seems off. I don't remember having this kind of skin complexion and body stature.

Who are these people around me? I tried to open my mouth but I can't utter a single word.

"Salamat at gising ka na anak. Maraming maraming salamat." the old man come to my side and thank the deity multiple times.

I'm just looking at them with confusion since I can't open my mouth. They continue to cry and thank heaven just because I open my eyes.

" Kung may nangyaring masama sa iyo. Kung tuluyan kang nawala sa amin ay hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko." The man said as he look at me with guilt and sadness. The woman caress his back and hold his hand.

"Mabuti na lamang at di mo kami iniwan anak." Their endless word of gratitude ends when the doctor enter the room. He started to check my body.

I tried to open my mouth again and this time I succeed.

"Who are you? Where am I?" Natutop ng mag-asawa ang kanilang bibig bago magsimulang umiyak ulit.

"Doc anong nangyari sa anak namin." They become hysteric.

"It seems like she have a temporary amnesia. Maybe from shock about what happened. I'll order more test to find out." the doctor assured them.

Lumapit sya sa akin habang binabasa ang kanyang chart.

"Please answer me." He put down his chart before he speak.

"Your name is Tanna Ellia Sandoval. You have been shot." What? That is not my name. I was about to say something when memories started flooding my head. It is the memory of the owner of this body.

"Ahhh." I scream as I start to lose my consciousness. All I could hear before I completely pass out was their crying voice and the doctor making instructions.