potato randomly half-venting?

a request... but something brave for me.

[small tw for a brief mention of sh, but just a mention.]

[this is also not directed towards anyone in particular, in case you were wondering.]

...

i have a request for all of you, and a small announcement to make as well.

keep in mind before i say it, that it doesn't mean i don't want to help any of you. i just need to get it off my chest.

can... if any of you need to vent to anyone, can it not be me for a small time being?

no offense to anyone, i'm just occupied with gcse's right now, and they're pretty important, so i need to focus on those.

and if i'm thinking too much about others' problems then... that could jeopardize my grades.

i know this sounds selfish, but i do think i should put myself first for a little bit of time.

but also... i've felt a bit drained here as of lately, if i'll be honest. i feel about the same level of drained as when there was a ventbook where anyone could contribute to it, which ended up being a warzone of untagged trigger warnings.

which leads into a more... serious point: if you are to vent to me (or anyone else for that matter), please put trigger warnings, and ESPECIALLY for me if you're mentioning sh of any kind.

but right now... i think i'd like for no-one to vent to ME DIRECTLY. keywords, me and directly. you can vent in general through a ventbook, and you can vent to others!

just not me for now, okay?

i'll probably be open again when half term hits, or once gcse's are completely over with. but for now... i kinda want a bit of me time.

is that bad to request...?

but also... i'm considering taking a small break from socializing here, simply because i wanna get back to writing. i have four stories planned, yet only two of them have any actual story written down.

so... i may be a bit quieter from now on, and frankly a bit more closed off, but... it's not anyone here's fault. i just wanna get back to writing without getting sidetracked.

this feels... pretty hard for me to say, to be honest, as i've always tried to paint myself as someone who would always be there. but lately, that's kinda fallen apart... i need to minimize my stress right now, and this will help me do that.

if you're okay with me doing this, then thank you. if you're not though, i can't blame you...