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17~Small Thumps

"Justin, move your ass." I groan pushing his body over in a pathetic attempt to try and wake him up. "Justin" I hiss as he groans his tattooed forearm covering his eyes.

"Fuck off" he grumbles tiredly making me pause in my movements and raise one eyebrow at him.

"Charming." I muse huffing as I climb off the bed and head for the curtains opening them to let the bright sun stream in. I'd been awake since half past seven, getting ready and trying my best to look presentable. "Justin if you want to come with me you have to get up now." I huff sitting on the bottom of the bed. I kind of need him there so I don't have a mental breakdown.

"I love your voice when you say words like 'now' it goes all weird." Justin chukled tiredly as my cheeks burn crimson. His slightly groggy morning voice is one of my favourite things, I love the sleepy look he always has on his face for about half an hour after he wakes up too. It makes him kind of like a puppy but cuter.

"I think that was a compliment, so thanks." I hum quietly as Justin sighs. "You have to get up because we literally have to leave in twenty five minutes." I sigh scooting up the bed so that I was beside Justin and could run my hands through his hair.

Today was the day of the first scan for little marshmallow and I wasn't exactly feeling Justin's excitement (he said he was excited eventhough he's refusing to get up). As usual I was terrified because this made everything else going on very real, I was mostly terrified because if anything was wrong well...it's my fault. Right?

Justin nods eventually sitting up as I walk out of the room running my hands through my hair trying to unknot the ends with my fingers. I've been trying to push the 'something might be wrong' thoughts to the back of my head so...think I'll just put them back there. I huff shoving half a strawberry into my mouth and scowling at the counter like I have for the last three days at this time without Justin.

Eventually after I'd finished forcing myself to eat food, Justin was ready and we left with me thinking of every possible thing that could go wrong today.

"Charlie, relax." Justin mumble from beside me, his eyes on me. Justin's hand reaches over to rest on my thigh, the warm feeling it sends through me calming me slightly but I'm still terrified and that;s showed by my contant nibbling on my lower lip and shaky nod. "It's all gonna be fine." Hopefully. I huff out a breath nodding in agreement as I turn off one of the winding roads.

"Justin," I begin nibbling on my lip nervously. "It's going to be really hard to like," I huff trying to figure out what exactly I'm trying to say here, "live here with a baby." I mumble my eyes focusing more than I necessarily needed to on the road as I feel Justin's attention peak as he keeps his eyes on me a 'mhm' cuing me to continue. I swallow heavily, my mouth all of a sudden feeling very dry as I try to feel less nervous. "So I'd probably have to move." I mumble nibbling on my bottom lip against feeling Justin tense from beside me. I say like this might happen, it is going to happen. "I was thinking LA, or wherever you are b-but if you dont want m-"

"Stop. Are you crazy?!" Justin almost yells making me jump in my spot. I shrink in my seat with the tone of his voice, he doesn't think this is a good idea? "Of course I want you there, and you'd be crazy if you think you're looking for anywhere else but my house." Justin speaks making my mouth open and close a few times.

"You don't have to do that." I rush out, my tongue getting a little tied because of his sudden proposal.

"Yes I do Charlie. And even if I don't have to I want to." Justin almost laughs making my cheeks burn once more. "You're having a baby, our baby! As if that wasn't enough of a reason I..." Justin looks at me, a look in his eyes something I've only seen once before, at the airport last year. My heart flutters at the memory, how he held me so softly and spoke the three words that made my heart ache as he stepped away from me. "I really care about you." Justin mumbles as though disappointed with the words he used.