Seth's POV
Something was different, something had changed. I couldn't put my finger on it but I knew something had changed with the way I see Marian. I couldn't help but glance at her every chance I get. Like right now while she was mopping the floor. She was in her usual loose white shirt and shorts, her hair tied up in a ponytail, sweat dripping down from her forehad to her neck. Nothing should be sexy about this...
"Yung paa mo." She frowned as she mopped between the coffee table and the couch I was sitting on. Itinaas ko ang mga paa ko sa coffee table at aksidenteng nasangga ang isang baso ng tubig na nakapantong doon. Bumagsak iyon sa sahig at nabasag. "Seth naman! You're so careless. Kapag ikaw talaga gumawala, kung hindi nagkakalat, sumisira ka ng gamit. Para ka talagang bata." Inis na sabi niya. She bent over to pick up the shards of glasses. Her shorts hitched up giving me a glimpse of her blue panties. I couldn't turn my head away kahit alam kong mali. I could stare at this all day.
Pull yourself together, man.
Damn, this was Marian, not some random woman I take out of the club and to my bed. Marian, my house cleaner!
She straightened up after picking up the broken glasses and that was when I took a deep inhale, as if I was holding my breath while I was staring at her nice ass. Bumalik siya na may dala-dalang walis at winalis pa ang mga natirang bubog bago siya nag mop ulit.
"Seth, gusto ko na umuwi ah! Di ko na napapanood ang favorite kong teleserye dahil sa'yo. Huwag ka ng magkakalat." She said as she was mopping the floor. She looked at me with a scowl on her face.
I nodded my head. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin sa kanya at tinuon ang pansin ko sa tv sa harap ko. She blocked it with her body and put her hand on her waist.
"Hoy, kanina ka pa walang kibo d'yan. Hindi ko alam kung nakikinig ka ba o nakikipag-usap na lang ako sa hangin." Sabi niya.
"Marian, I'm watching!" I groaned.
"May problema ka ba? Bakit ba ang tahimik mo ngayon?"
"Wala." Nakaismid na sagot ko.
"Teka, baka naman may lagnat ka." She walked to where I was sitting and felt my neck with the back of her head. I instantly jerked away.
"I'm not sick!" My brows wrinkled. "Kapag nagsasalita ako, ayaw mo. Kapag naman tahimik ako, ayaw mo din."
"Naninibago lang ako. Saka hindi tayo nag-aaway ngayon, nakakamiss din pala." She laughed.
"I'm not in the mood. Just do what you have to do and leave." Sabi ko.
"Ang sungit mo talaga ngayon, siguro meron ka!" She mumbled as she continued mopping the floor.
I limped against the couch as soon as she moved away from where I was seating. Why was I suddenly all tensed up around Marian? Something had really changed. I didn't know why I was feeling this way.
Marian's POV
I pushed down the door handle to Seth's unit. Hindi na ako nagulat nang malaman kong hindi naka-lock iyon. Seth had always been careless. He forgets things, misplace them, or lose them. We were the complete opposite of each other. Kaya nga siguro madalas kaming magtalo. I double check everything, triple even. I always check twice if my door is lock before I go to bed. I never misplace anything, I have a space in my house where I put everything I might need later on so I wouldn't have a hard time finding it. My house was always clean and organized. Maybe I really have a mild form of OCD.
Pumasok ako sa unit at agad bumungad sa akin ang kalat na mga damit ni Seth. Hindi na bago iyo sa akin. Kung maghubad yun parang ahas na nagbabalat. Kung saan-saan lang ibinabato ang mga damit. I picked up the trail of clothes he left as I was walking inside. Inayos ko ang sapatos niya na nakakalat sa pinto. Dinampot ko ang pantalon niya, boxers, at t-shirt. I picked up a blue fabric on the floor and paused when I figured out that it was a dress, a size zero halter dress of a woman. I didn't know why but I felt like my heart was being squeezed. Nakakailang hakbang pa lang at ang itim na thongs naman ang sumalubong sa akin.
"Seth... Oh God, Seth... please... please, more..." Mahinang ungol ng boses ng isang babae sa loob ng kwarto ni Seth.
Napatingin ako sa pinto ng kwarto niya. I wanted to ignore it but I couldn't. I slowly walked in front of his door. Mula sa labas ng pinto ay rinig ko ang mga ulo ng babae at ni Seth, ang paggalaw ng kama, ang pagkaluskos ng kobre kama. I was a virgin but I wasn't stupid. I knew what they were doing inside his room.
My chest suddenly felt heavy. I felt like my lungs had run out of air. Para akong naubusan ng lakas, nanghina ang mga tuhod ko at nagmamadali akong naglakad papunta sa couch na ilang hakbang lang ang layo mula sa pinto ng kwarto niya. Ibinagsak ko ang sarili ko sa ibabaw nito.
The faint noises coming from the bedroom was making my heart ache. Why was I feeling this way? Ano naman kung may katalik si Seth sa loob ng kwarto niya? There was nothing going on between us and there would never be.
Siya lang naman ang first kiss ko, the first ever guy who gave me flowers, the first to touch my virgin breast... Ano naman ngayon, di ba? All that meant nothing to him, he had done those to hundreds of women before, and it shouldn't mean anything to me too.
Maya-maya pa ay tumigil na ang ingay, ilang minuto pagkatapos nun bumukas ang pinto. Seth walked through the door wearing sweatpants and a black shirt. Behind her was a pretty woman, the kind of pretty you see in catalogue magazines, with only a black towel wrapped around her body.
"Who is she?" The woman asked when she saw me.
Tumingin sa akin si Seth at nagtama ang mga mata namin. I quickly looked away, afraid he'd see my emotions through my eyes.
"She's my house cleaner." He said, his word felt cold and stiff.
"Have you seen my dress?" His company asked, her eyes scanning the floor.
"Dinampot ko, lalabhan ko sana." Hinanap ko ang dress niya sa mga damit na hawak ko at inabot ko iyon sa kanya.
She gave me a smile and took her dress. "Thanks."
Isinuot niya ang mga damit niya at umalis na sila ni Seth. Naiwan akong mag-isa sa condo. Why did I feel like I wanted to cry as I was watching them leave? Bakit ang bigat bigat sa dibdib?
Huminga ako ng malalim at tumayo mula sa kinauupuan ko. I needed to finish my work so I could leave early. Ayaw ko ng maabutan si Seth. Nilagay ko sa labahan ang mga madudumi niyang damit, naglinis ako ng living room, at ng kusina. My heart pounded like a hammer as I walked towards Seth's bedroom. Ang kwartong ginamit niya at ng mukhang kabayong babaeng kasama niya. I was afraid to see what was left behind after using that room for their carnal pleasure.
I pushed the door open. Sumalubong sa akin ang gusot na kumot ng kama at ang kalat-kalat na unan. The smell of fresh sex lingered in the room; a mix of his cologne, a woman's perfume, their sweat, and something musty. I forced myself to step into the room. I wanted to get this over with. Mabilis kong pinalitan ang kobre kama niya. Nang magwalis ako sa ilalim ng kama I saw two used condoms with his essence.
My heart felt really heavy. As if it had been dropped out onto my lap. Bakit ganito kasakit? Was I falling for him? Naguguluhan ako. Hindi ko alam kung ano 'tong nararamdaman ko pero ang tanging nasisiguro ko lang, nasasaktan ako.
