Marian's POV
God, let your will be done. Those were the only words I used to hear my mother pray. Tinanong ko si mama noon kung bakit iyon lang palagi ang sinasabi niya tuwing nagdadasal siya. Tinanong ko siya kung wala ba siyang gustong hilingin o sabihin bukod dun. Sabi niya sa akin hindi naman daw niya kailangan humiling ng kahit ano kasi alam na ng Diyos kung ano ang gusto natin bago pa natin idasal sa Kanya iyon. We only need to thank and trust Him because He already knows what we wanted most in our hearts. At kahit ano'ng hiling ko, kahit umiyak ka pa ng dugo, kung nakikita Niyang hindi para sa iyo yun, hindi Niya ibibigay iyon. He has better plans than we have for ourselves.
Karamihan daw kasi ang mga tao ngayon mas madami pa ang hiling sa dasal nila kaysa sa pasasalamat. Nakakalimutan na nila magtiwala sa plano ng Diyos at ipinipilit nila ang plano nila para sa sarili nila.
Parang ako. For so many years, I'd been wishing for a boyfriend, nakalimutan kong hindi pala genie si God. Kaya siguro hindi ako pinagbibigyan kasi mas nagmamagaling ako sa kanya. Maybe I just needed to let go of the plans I have for myself and surrender to the plan He had for me.
God, Let your will be done. I found myself uttering my mother's prayer. I decided to stop asking anything from Him and trust His plans for me. I knew the chance of me getting pregnant was slim. Ilang babae na ba ang narinig niyo na nabuntis ng ganong paraan? Pero kung mangyayari, mangyayari. Kung para sa akin, para sa akin. Kung nagmeet nga ang sperm cell ni Seth at ang ovary ko, then thank God. Kung hindi, tanggap ko na na ito na talaga ang kapalaran ko.
Seth's POV
"Wala nga si Seth dito." Marian said in a controlled but irritated tone. I knew that tone too well. Kagigising ko lang at boses na niya ang narinig ko. I yawned, raking my fingers through my hair as I walked to the living room.
"Seth..." The girl said when she saw me. I froze. "There you are! Kanina pa kita hinahanap sabi sabi niya wala ka. May dala akong-" The girl held up a red box.
"Hindi yan si Seth, kambal niya yan. Pero ibibigay ko na lang sa kanya 'to." Marian said, taking the box before shutting the door to her face. The girl kept knocking but Marian turned away and we both ignored it. Nagsawa din siguro ang babae at huminto na ito.
"Who was that?" I asked.
"You tell me." She said in an irritated tone. She went to the kitchen and put down the box on table. "Wala naman sa pinagusapan natin na trabaho ko ang magtaboy sa mga babae mo. Hindi pa ba ako bayad sa utang ko sa'yo?" She untied the ribbon and opened the box. "Ugh! Chocolate na naman nakakasawa na."
"Paanong hindi ka magsasawa? Ikaw umubos ng chocolates sa fridge." My brow shot up in amusement. "Ibabawas ko yun sa sweldo mo."
"Hindi mo naman ako sinuswelduhan." She rolled her eyes.
"Idadagdag ko yun sa utang mo sa akin." I retorted.
"Gusto mo talaga akong makasama ng matagal, no?" She gave me a teasing grin. She took out a fork from the drawer in dug it into the corner of the cake.
"Syempre, wala nang maglilinis ng bahay ko." I shrugged. Sinubo niya ang cake at sarap na sarap na nginuya niya iyon. She carelessly eats like a little girl, getting some icing on the corner of her mouth. Natuon ang atensyon ko doon. I couldn't focus on anything but that. Holy hell, how I wanted to lick off. Instead, I extended my finger to wipe off the smear of icing and all of a sudden she froze, unprepared for what I did. Good God, I wished it was my lips instead of my finger. I felt the strong urge to trace her soft and tender lips but I held myself back. Temptation was just around the corner and it was dangerously close.
I pulled away, feeling something run throughout my body— like an electric shock. I brought my finger to my mouth and licked the icing off and it was the sweetest damn thing I had ever tasted. "Not bad." I said, relieving some of the tension I was feeling in the air.
Tumalikod ako sa kanya at itinuon na lang ang atensyon ko sa coffee maker na nasa countertop. I turned away from her so I could take a deep breath, trying to shrug away this unfamiliar feeling washing over me.
I poured out a cup. I had to pull myself back together before going back to the counter island table where Marian was sitting. Umupo ako sa harap niya at ibinaba ang kape sa ibabaw nito. She wrinkled her nose and grimaced.
"What?" Tanong ko ng makita ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya.
"You know I don't like coffees." She said. "But that! I can't stand the smell of that. Masyadong matapang."
Dinala niya ang isang buong cake palayo sa akin at umupo sa dining table. Doon niya tinuloy ang pagkain ng chocolate cake hanggang sa makalahati niya iyon. I smiled, shaking my head as I sip my coffee.
