poems

Envey of Alice

I keep falling down with eyes closed
The wind whips my hair and bites my skin
I'll reach wonderland I had supposed
But unlike Alice I fell down a hole within
I could see if I could open my lids
or look around and see pitch black
Because I'm searching for a light hid
But there was one thing I lacked

I was looking outside from the in
And could only hear earths din
The light I sook soon to find
I could never but cause such kind

I looked about instead of within
And I cried aloud against the din
I could not let my fears to win
But I was searching out my fin.

I seek for light only found in friends
But found it when I fell down Alice's hole
And found my light where my life ends
I found the light that I had stole

My light my hope found deep inside
Deeper than the rich man's pride
My reason for life inside my soul
I closed my eyes in my mind
In the hole my life I stole
Falling to find a light
Telling myself I was alright
A light at last I did see
When again I closed eyes and looked inside of me

Buried in a cold black hole
Not me but others know
In the world of this hole black
I found the light that I did lack

Looking around to see nothing
I looked down to see me bring
Light I glew in the hole
Then I flew with life I stole
Two more friends I freed that day
But yet they chose to stay
As upward fast I climbed
My mind a mess and still it rhymed

The light I sought was only me
The life I bought I finally see
Ever with those two to be
Until the pearly gates greet three

My wings I found in a world of black
I found the life I did lack
And oh with tender smack
I found in death my life.

Alice I think you found a key
But I needed none to set me free
I saw my life before my eyes
In a mirror I realise
I can't give up
Nor let go

But instead of lies and all the whole
I couldn't cry so I fly out the hole

I found myself in the whole
The glass frame that lacked a soul

A cold hearted bastard true
But in truth rooted too

I am that glass that shuns the sun
But moonlight seems I've just begun

This shattered glass down yonder hole
I wonder who did throw

Myself or God a friend or two?
No one I found on earth who knew

So I took my wing and flew above
All the ones here I love

To see a new world not late
To see but leave earth my fate
I can not say either I hate
To hell in a hand basket not a crate

I find new world or do I create?
My hunger for more no man can sate

But I digress
And lay to rest
I am out the hole in which Alice fell
I fly above heaven to hell

Anyway this stories done
Till new line another one.