Hidden secrets

It's a long drive

Nat's pov
After the phone call yesterday I decided the only way to protect the team was to leave, I know they are the avengers and they can take care of themselves, but not from Ivan, the boss of the red room, what ever he wants he gets and he won't stop at nothing to get it, and so far I can't name one person that has actually beaten him and lived to tell the tale so the only solution to this problem is to leave, maybe go off the grid and hope that Yelena won't be able to find me, I need to leave soon though because it's already 4 am and Steve will probably be up soon and he's the last person I want to see right now, I might not be able to handle it, I mean seeing him for the last time, unless for some reason Ivan gives up which will be a 0.000001% chance of happening so yeah I won't ever be able to see the team again, or him, I quickly wipe up a tear that rolls down my face and gather my bags, I take one last look at my room and shut the door, I then head to the lobby just one last time to give the team a message, I write it down and instruct Jarvis to inform them about it in approximately 24 hours, I know it seems a bit late but knowing clint he'll try and track me down so I'll need at least a day to outrun him, just as I was about to leave I hear footsteps behind me, I curse under my breathe and turn around to see him standing there
"Nat what, what are you doing?" He asks with a sense of sadness in his voice
"Steve, I-I, I need to leave" I say with a tear rolling down my face
"What no, why? how could you? after everything we've been through?"
"Steve please I need to go it's for the best I need to keep the team, and you safe" I say trying to hold in the rest of the tears that try so desperately to fall down
"Please just answer my question nat why are you leaving, is It something to do with that call yesterday?, I knew something was up I just didn't want to pester you" he says whilst stepping closer and closer to me
"Look please Steve the less you know the better"
"Dammit nat, you never tell me or the team anything, I think for once you owe me the right to actually know what's going on so please just tell me" he says with a desperation in his tone as if he craves answers, I look at him them at my bags on the floor
"Fine but not here I will tell you everything on the way to the airport" I say whilst picking up my bags, he looks at me and nods, Steve grabs his jacket and we both head to the car.
10 minutes later
"Right I'm In the car no one's here now please tell me what's going on" he says sternly, I look at him and huff
"Fine, it all happened yesterday, I got a phone call as you know from an old Acquaintance, yelena belova, she too was trained in the red room along with me , she was constantly competing against me for the blackwidow title, she always used to try and kill me, but she never could" I say whilst wiping a tear as memory's flood my mind like a tidal wave
"Okay so how does this fit in with you leaving?" He asked with sympathy
"Well as you know Barton helped me escape the red room but she never did, She always loved the place for some strange reason and she still works for them to this day, and she phoned me up telling me that she was uh- coming for me to take me back to that hell hole to make me work for them again and to make me do all of their dirty work" I say with sadness and anger, Steve looks at me jaw dropped
"But I don't understand if they have this yelena girl why do they need you?" He asked confused
"Because for some reason I was always Ivan's favorite, I was always best in the class with yelena close behind, no one could ever beat me" as I say this is see realization hit Steve in the face
"Oh I'm sorry nat I really didn't know" he says whilst putting his hand on mine, I smile at him
"It's fine, now can you drive me to the airport please?" I ask with a fake smile at the end
"Sure it's the least I can do, but how are you planning on telling the team?" He asks
"Don't worry I've got that covered"

"Please don't make me do this" I shout
"For you to survive in this world Natalia it is necessary" she replies as she hands me the loaded gun, I take the gun and hold it up at him "I'm sorry alexi forgive me"
"Do what you need to do, And I love you Natalia, goodbye my love"
"I can't, I won't!" I shout with a tear, I get punished by a hit across the face
"If you don't I will in the most, painful slowest way imagine able, I'm not going to say this again, do it!" I hold the gun up once more and pull the trigger, I hear a loud bang along with a thump of a body hitting the floor, I hold back the tears that threaten to fall down
"Good, well done Natalia but don't disobey me again after this it will all be over you may finally earn your place on the world
"I have no place in the world" i say

"Nat- Natasha are you okay? You were stirring in your sleep" Steve asks
"Um yeah- how long have I been asleep?" I ask confused
"About an hour, were only 20 minutes away from the airport, you sure your ok?" He asks one more time
"Yeah fine" I say whilst sitting up, i was about to ask him where we were when the window behind us smashed and a hot burning pain fell over me, I look down at my shoulder to see red blood pouring out of it
"Ahh shit" I shout, Steve looks at me then behind
"Natasha!!" He shouts
"Ahh- I'm fine keep your eyes on the road and get us out of here" he looks at me and nods, we start to pick up speed as yet more bullets fly past us, everything around me starts to fade and I don't even know where we are anymore, it wasn't long after that when everything started going black, I could see Steve shouting at me but I couldn't hear what he was saying and then everything thing went black.

A/N hope you enjoyed, new chapter coming soon, as always please vote and feel free to give feedback thanks guys <3 -shield135