Hidden secrets

Where it all began

Natasha's pov
I wake, wake at 11pm on time ready for my life to end, ready to meet yelena for the trade. I look to Steve to see him sleeping peacefully so innocent, just looking at him now makes me feel so guilty for leaving him like this but I have too and someday, someday he'll understand why I had to. I decide to write a quick note to explain why I won't be here in the morning and to explain why I'm no longer by his side and probably half way round the world by now, I start it off like this
Steve,
You may be wondering where I am, and by now probably not even in the country anymore, yelena called me when you were in the drug store and she told me she had Clint, and that's my fault, he's in danger because of me, so she offered me a trade,him for me, I hope you understand I had to leave you and do this, I owe him a debt and I can't let him die for me, I can't let anyone die for me so I accepted the deal, don't bother looking for me because it will be a waste of time, I'm sorry I had to do this please know that I'm sorry and that I didn't have a choice please apologize to the team for me, thanks for everything, you made my life a whole again and I'll always be grateful for that
-Natasha x
I scribble the last few words down and quickly re read it, I feel a tear fall down my cheek as I finish up, I place the note on the table for Steve to see and leave, leave without looking back because I knows if I do I'll want to go back and never leave Steve's arms but that is the reality that seems so impossible right now, so far fetched that it's like a child's dream. I quickly wipe my face and head to the place where it started, one of the old red room's bunkers, a couple of blocks down the street from where I am now, me and the other girls moved there one year before the graduation and trained in the art of the American ways, perfected accents, American habits all that malarkey to perfect our covers and Identities this was the place were it all began, all the missions, assassinations, of course we'd travel around the world a lot to places like Russia, India, rio, Budapest but this is were it all started for me, where it all began.
I headed down the street in the darkness and felt the eyes of every pedestrian there, I started to doubt if they really were normal people or if they were yelena's goons and soon I discovered I was right as they all put there guns up at me
"Really not gonna by me dinner first?" I ask with my hands up and as a punishment I felt the back of one of the guards guns smash into my lower lip, I tasted blood in my mouth and realized it was busted up, I gently touch my lip and see the blood on my finger
"Really?" I groan
"Your humor won't last long were your going" he said in his thick Russian accent, he pushes me forward and tells me to keep going, we carry on doing this till we reach the old where house where the bunker is located
"She's waiting for you inside" he says whilst pushing me through the door, I fall to the ground but quickly get to my feet, immediately seeing Clint in the middle of the room on a chair, I rush towards him but am stopped by a painful blow to the stomach, I fall to my knees trying to catch me breathe as they winded me
"Ah Natalia I knew you wouldn't let me down"
I looked up to see yelena staring down at me
"I go by Natasha now actually" I spit back whilst getting back up
"Abandoning your Russian name now, wow you truly are an embarrassment to your country" she says whilst staring at me in disgust
"This is my country and it always will be and nothing will change that yelena" I shout back, she tuts in response
"Well a deal is a deal I guess" she nods to one of her guards and they bring Clint over to us
"You ok Clint?" I ask worried
"Natasha I told you not to come, I'm fine"
"If I hadn't of come you know what would happen" I say back but he just stares at me blankly, but for one second I saw something, something in his eyes and if there's one thing I've learnt from clint it's his facial expressions and for one second I saw it, he wasn't scared, worried, in pain, it looked as if he's happy almost excited, like a child opening presents on Christmas Day, I stare for a minute deep in my thoughts until realisation hit me, he didn't, no oh god this isn't gonna end well, I give him the look telling him if we don't die from this I'm gonna kill him, which by the way I apparently do a lot, says clint anyway.
"Anyway we best be off come Natalia we have plans for you" I look at her than at clint
"Clint if we live so help me god-"
"Nat get down" he says whilst jumping on me, a shot fired just above my head hitting yelena in the arm, she goes down holding her arm and screaming, me and clint get up as quickly as possible and guards surround us
"Really clint you didn't tell me god you are so dead-" I get cut of by a guy swinging at me, I easily dodge it and counter with a blow to the face
"I know nat but I couldn't risk letting yelena know" he says whilst punching a guy
"Well where's the support then?" I shout dodging the blows aimed at my face
"Um right" punch "there" he says whilst pointing to the doors as they blown open, shield agents swarm in with Steve soon behind them, they shoot the remaining kgb thugs and secure the area taking yelena into shield custody where there'll most likely fix her up and interrogate her, I look to clint with my hands on my hips  and give him the look again
"Look nat in sorry I-"
"I don't want to hear it" I say putting my Hand in his face, I can't help but smile and he smiles back and in the end we both end up laughing
"You gotta admit that was pretty fun right?" He asked
"What the bit where you made me think I had to abandon my life and go back to the one place I describe as hell or the bit where we just kicked ass?" I ask with a grin
"Uh the second one and you do know I'm sorry about that right?" He asks
"Yeah, I would have done the same just tell me next time yeah" I say
"Let's hope there won't be a next time" he says with a chuckle, I look at him and smile, I know there will be a next time I think to myself, but my thoughts were soon interrupted by the loud shout of my name
"Natasha!" Steve shouts as he runs towards me and embraces me with a hug
"Ouch I just got punched there" I say with a smile, he looks at me worried
"Oh sorry" he says whilst looking down Into my eyes, he pulls me into a hug again, and I hug back feeling the pounding of his heart in his chest and the warmth of his body
"I'm just gonna leave you too it" clint says leaving with a smirk on his face, I stay in Steve's embrace for what seems like forever till he breaks off
"Now what the hell where you thinking leaving like that you could have gotten your self killed don't ever do that again!" He shouts whilst pulling me closer to him
"I was so worried, don't scare me like that again" he said with worried eyes, I couldn't help but let a tear flow down my cheek
"I know I'm sorry, I didn't have a choice" I say Into his chest
"I know I read the note, look I'm just glad your safe now and that's all that matters"
"Thanks Steve, for coming it means a lot" I say, he looks down and me and nods with that smile I like so much
"Come on, we've got to go back to shield for debriefing and I think fury is waiting for you and I don't think he's happy" I look at him and sigh
"Great just great" I say whilst we both  get into the shield car waiting for us
"The helicarrier please" Steve says to the driver.

A/N hope you like many more chapters to go I'm very excited, as always please vote, comment and follow thanks guys
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