Fat & Healthy ( How I Survived Shaming and Learned To Love My Body Again)

Live Proud Without Shame

I am writing this the day after Christmas where I ate my favorite foods without shame and now is the day I get to start taking off the calories I put on. I enjoy this time almost as much as the time I was eating the delicious morsels of cake, milk gravy with cornbread and some veggies too ha ha cabbage and carrots. 

So my exercise today will be cardio and lots of it. Intervals of running and walking, three minutes of each to the beat of some songs I love. I made a playlist a couple of days ago knowing I would need some inspiration to get me going because for me the foods that taste the best do make me sluggish but the hardest thing about taking it off for me is getting inspired. Once I start there is no stopping me til I get full on sweaty .. a hot mess to put it in a way, but really its nothing glamorous it is literally a hot mess. I am adding a link to my playlist I made of some of my favorite artists on Spotify so if you were curious whom I am going to workout to today you can check it out. It's called Monday Motivation (yes I know its Saturday but remember no rules *smile*)

I am also having joint issues still so I have to avoid certain exercises until the issue gets resolved but where there is great desire there is progress and although very slowly I see the light at the end of my physical ache journey knowing I will reach the sun if I can just keep walking so walk on I will. 

Okay that is enough about exercise now lets talk about enjoying things without shame. Whether it be a food, person, love life choice, religion ... anything we get to decide we like we should do it without fear or shame because as my parents taught me long ago we are all just as important as everyone else and everyone else is as important as we are all well. Meaning love what you love but don't expect everyone to agree with you, or even one person sometimes even. As a human I find intense joy when I like something or someone and others say wow that is cool or awesome or wonderful. Also as a human I can feel a bit of sadness if people don't see the great thing in what I find to be great and I use to hide the way I felt for fear of that response. As an Introvert when I took it upon myself to share something important to me and it was rejected It felt like my feelings were not validated in the sense I felt my feelings were wrong if someone did not agree with me but now I see that is not true. Just because others may not share your same feeling about something makes it no less or no more important than before. It just means you like it and they don't not a big deal at all. 

Sometimes people will say if you like this person well you can't like that person its "two faced" or Sometimes people will say if you believe in this than you can't do this or that its "sinful" well at first my reaction when I was young was to hide the things I enjoyed the most for example favorite songs that were not "cool" would get turned down in the radio of my dads car on the way to school afraid the popular kids in school might hear and not like them. Scared so much of there Judgment I forgot In the process I was in fact the one Judging them and later on learned some of the people I liked  to hear sing that was not top of the charts the popular kids liked as well. I missed the opportunity to share a connection with someone because the fear of Shame was so much in my face, until I pushed it away I was never going to be happy. Maybe that is why I share so much songs on social media now, I am not sure but I do know I am not gonna hide my feelings because that is a deep hole you have to spend working and struggling to get out of, I am out and not going back in. Let me take the end of this part of my story to encourage you If you love something don't be quiet, don't try to force others to like it but let people know they may have never seen that painting or cooked that delicious dinner or tried out the new exercise your hooked on. So try this, just think of something you love right now and go share it with the world don't be afraid to live proud without shame of what Inspires you, what makes you happy, what makes you grow and learn. Just see what happens, you may get a lot of hate but you may get a lot of love too with people saying hey I never seen or heard or knew that before!! What ever the response is its not going to make what you like or love any more less or any more important than before but chances are getting it out you like it will make you feel better even if no one else agrees with you because hiding is not fun. Hiding is not respecting yourself and It allows Shame to control what you do and don't do and there should only be one boss of your life, YOU. I talked about in other parts of my story I have made lots of mistakes ( at least one mistake a day), Had major and minor setbacks, dug many many holes for myself to get out of ... the things I love helped me through all that. My animals, my musics people whom I love, My family, My Friends, My religion, My favorite books,My desires, My stubbornness, not all these things mesh well together for other people but they do for me because there is no one out there the same exact as me or as you. Go do it what you were meant to do without fear, shame, and with all the things you love right beside you. May you have a wonderful day. Next chapter is going to be sharing in particular some of my favorite workouts and recipes. 

*smile time* I just chuckled over this joke I seen on google this morning from fuelrunning.com . Hey no rules ha ha exercise jokes are cute ♥

Guy #1 asks "What do you do for exercise?" 

Guy #2 answers "I lift weights."

Guy #1 asks again " What do you do for cardio?"

Guy #2 answers " I lift weights faster."