MARJAAN- COMPLETE HALF OF MY DEEN (#YourStoryIndia) (#ProjectWomenUp)

Chapter 26 - loss

This chapter is dedicated to my mother and all the wonderful mothers in this world . They stand by us in our good and bad. They sacrifice their sleep,comfort,happiness just to see their children happy. Fortunate are those who have a mother as they are our door to paradise.

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Allah Says in the Holy Quran Chatper 2 Surah Baqarah verses 155-157:
155 Be sure We shall test you with something of fear, and hunger, some loss in goods, or lives, or the fruits (of your toil); but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere.
156 Who say when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah we belong and to Him is our return."
157 They are those on whom (descend) blessings from Allah and Mercy; and they are the ones that receive guidance.

Marjaan P.O.V

My pulse rate was increasing. Surely I wasn't supposed to bleed. My doctor had asked me if there was any light bleeding when I saw her at the last appointment. Does that mean light bleeding was okay? This was clearly not a light bleeding nor was it heavy. I couldn't move, I stayed there for a while. My brain refused to help me and my heart was in shock.

I got out of the bathroom; I lay on my bed quickly grabbing my phone from the side table. I quickly type blood in pregnancy in Google search, my phone joins hands with my brain and a quick switching off message pops up and it got switched off.

I kept my phone on charge. There won't be any doctors at this time of the night, I decided to wait for some time and I slept off. I had slept well after a week and I was cheerful when I woke up, but it lasted only for seconds as the thought of blood came back to my mind. I rushed to the bathroom and I was relieved to see that there was no fresh blood.

I went to the kitchen and there Mumma was preparing breakfast.

"What happened?" she asked me after taking just one look at my face. She could read me.

"There is a slight bleeding." I tried to sound calm.

"It's alright to have slight bleeding, anyway, we will go to hospital. Take a bath and come and eat breakfast" Mumma went back to preparing food. I took a quick shower and wore a maxi dress and wore my abayya.

Bhaiyya had left for college, both of us would be graduating at around the same time. He had a tough time doing engineering, and I didn't have much work load compared to him. Mumma fed me breakfast like in my childhood as I was feeling low.

Daddy had also left for work, so we called a cab and we reached City Hospital. There was quite some waiting as doctor was in the theatre. There were many pregnant women waiting for their turn. I watched the televison blankly and soon enough my name was called .

I went inside with Mumma.

I walked inside and greeted the Doctor.

She took my file and went through it.

"Your last visit was on 24th march, your next appointment is on 24 April." She wanted to know why we were meeting her on the 6th of April.

"Doctor, there is slight bleeding" I said

" Any pains?"

" No"

She asked me several questions and I answered her.

She took me to get a scan. They had set up all the scanning apparatus and everything in the corner of her cabin itself and I was asked to remove my underwear for the period of the scan. It would be a trans vaginal scan.

I lay there praying Ayathul Qursi.

There was a slight ticklish sensation when she put the machine into work. I couldn't see the monitor as it was far away. I kept looking at my Doctors face. There was no emotion at all in her face.