The Right Way to Write a Book

Thoughts

I hate being bundled up in my feelings.

Torn from not being able to speak to people about them,

Especially the people that hurt you and cause your thoughts to be as they are.

What do you do when you're stuck?

It's not like you don't trust your friends, because you do.

Just you know you can't let it out because they'll view and treat you differently.

Or it'll just screw it up.

People talk.

A lot.

Rumors and secrets spread fast, how fast could something personal like these demons run around?

It's bad enough that they chase after one another in my head,

I don't need them to run about outside of my head.

I really want to have the ability to change everything.

Change the demons in my head,

Change the people around me and what they say and do,

Change the environment,

Just everything.

I just want to live a decent life where I can sit and relax,

And to be able to change everything so I can be like this.

Maybe I just need to change myself.

But how, when I can barely deal with the thoughts in my head, needing to rant?

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I don't think I want to find someone I can tell everything to.

I know that I'll manage to hurt them, like I've done the others.