Something I'm Not 2- History (Sequel)

Chapter 4

I boldly went to school the following morning with a huge bruise across my face and a puffy eye. I kept my head down when I passed people and stayed towards the back of the group during the demonstrations. I brought Arrow with me just because I didn't trust Trevor with him after yesterday. I kept him on a leash but he followed pretty well. Maria sat next to me on the bench. "So how did it go with the job yesterday?" she asks and I keep looking down so my hair would cover my bruise. "Good. Thank you. I already have my first rescue dog." I say quietly and pull Arrow up in my lap. He licks my chin and I smile and rub his floppy ears. Maria reaches over and pets him with a giggle. "He's so cute! What's his name?" she asks. "Arrow." 

"Aw. I think a dog will help you. I don't ever see you smile." she chuckles and I fake a small smile but then the smile sunk when hers did and she pulled my hair back. I pulled away. "What happened?" she gasps and I shrug. "It's nothing. Don't worry about it." I tell her and she shakes her head. "Who did this to you?" she asks and I hesitate, continuing to pet Arrow to distract me. "Trevor. He snapped when I came home and then the dog sent him over the top." I sigh and tilt my head up towards the lights. "He wants me to love him instead of Harry. But I didn't think he would stoop that low. He knows my childhood. He was there. How he would get the nerve to do that is what scares me." I admit to her and she furrows her eyebrows. "You're childhood?" she questions and I nod. 

"My dad beat me and my brother a lot." I shrug and start to tear up again, quickly reaching up to wipe my eyes before the tears fell. "The thing is though, Trevor had no regret in his eyes. And even more, he was never the violent one. Harry was more violent then he was. Harry would never hit me. And if he did, he would've immediately regretted it and tried to fix it." I say sniffing and she touches my shoulder. 

"I'm sorry, Caroline." she says quietly and I shake my head and pet Arrow again, cupping his jaw with both hands. "When she told me she was looking for a new home for him, I wanted him because he reminded me of Harry." I faintly smile. "He's bold, striking, protective, and sweet. Harry wasn't sweet all the time but he had his moments." I say remembering that Maria was next to me and didn't care. 

"You still love him." she says to me and I turn my head to look at her. "I don't think I could stop loving him if I tried." I sigh and look back ahead of me. "I think I'm to the point where I can accept the fact he's gone and not coming back, but I don't think I have the energy to forgive him for just dropping me off here. Now I'm right back to where I started." I half laugh out of sarcasm. 

"Meanwhile he's out there half way around the world probably. Screwing around with prettier girls who just want his money and sex and partying until he can't see straight. He's got it all and left me with nothing." I laugh under my breath and she shakes her head. "You just got a job of your own. He paid for your schooling and gave you an apartment and a car with spare money in case you needed it. He didn't leave you with nothing. " she reminds me and I shake my head. "I haven't touched the money in the bank he gave me. The one thing I vowed to myself when I knew we were going to be together was that I wouldn't touch his money. I don't need it or want it. And yes, he set me up with what I needed to get my life started here but what he didn't realize is what I needed most was him. One thing him and Trevor taught me is that actions speak louder than words." I reach up and run a hand through my hair. 

"I figured that out when Trevor came. Trevor will tell me he loves me, but it never shows in his eyes. He doesn't mean it. And I was positive last night. Harry couldn't ever form the words when I was around but I knew by the way he looked at me." I faintly smile, remembering the pictures of us that Jessica took. 

"Just leave Trevor." she says and I swallow. "I couldn't afford to live on my own right now. And Trevor keeps me grounded and focused. I don't want to be alone right now." I explain and she sighs in thought. "If I had a place of my own, I would let you stay with me." she says and I smile. "It's cool. I'll figure what to do with Trevor." I say.