Something I'm Not 2- History (Sequel)

Chapter 37

After a few hours passed Ed popped in the room with an envelope in his hands. I had hoped my face wasn't still red. "How long have you been in here?" he asks quietly and approaches me. I shrug. "A while."I mutter and he hands me the envelope. "It's the check for the music video." he says and I take it, setting it down and returning to hugging my knees. "Did something happen already? He hasn't been here that long." he comments and I nod. "Welcome to our happy relationship, Ed." I say sarcastically and he lays a hand on my shoulder. 

"Where is he now?" I ask and he shrugs. "Sitting in the kitchen. On his fifth cup of coffee." he says and I rub the back of my neck. "Why so much? I told him to go get some sleep." I almost bark and he gives me a half smile. "You think he would actually go to bed knowing you're mad at him?" he asks, leaning on the back of a chair and I shrug. "I don't know what to do with him, Ed." I tell him and his smile sinks. "He loves you." he tells me and I shake my head, standing up. "No, he's too afraid to. He won't ever truly love me until he deals with the previous shit he's gotten himself into." I bark and march out of the room. "Where do you think you're going?" he calls after me. "To spend my check." I answer grumpily and pull my shoes on. "How you going to get there?" he asks and I shrug. "I got money now, I'll get a cab." I say and Harry just eyes me from the kitchen table. 

I shut the door before anyone could argue with me. Thankfully I didn't hear the door open behind me. 

Except I ended up walking to clear my head and ended up passing the studio. It was open, and I saw a few people in there so I walked in. Phillip was instructing a session with another girl but the one thing I immediately noticed was he didn't touch her at all. She stumbled a few times but he remained collected and was very patient with her. She was younger than me. 

I stood by the desk and watched for a little bit until the lesson ended and he turned around. He looked shocked and checked his watch. "You're kinda early." he says and I shrug. "I was just walking around town and figured I'd stop by." I tell him and he looks around. "Well, I don't have much going for a few hours. Want to go on a run with me?" he asks and I give him a funny look. "A run? Like, exercise?" I ask and he laughs. "Of course." he says and I think about it. He's got a certain stress free energy about him, maybe he's the type of person I need to be around right now... even though I have no where near close to his endurance. 

"Will you kill me?" I ask him and he chuckles. "We can make it short." he says and I shrug. "Okay then. But I can't run in jeans." I look down and he shrugs. "I got a pair of shorts you can borrow." he says walking into a back room where a closet was. He hands me a pair and I change in the bathroom. They were big but it was expected. 

He went slower for my sake but it felt weird being in public with him without being hidden. Except a few cameras snapped from a bush as we passed. Ugh. "I forgot you're a celebrity's girlfriend." he chuckles and turns a corner. "Yeah." I mumble. 

"So what's going on? You seem upset." he says slowing to a walk. I was panting and struggling to talk. "Harry came to Ed's this morning to be with me and ended up in a weird argument." I admit to him. "What about?" he asks and I shrug. "It kinda went back to the marriage thing again." I tell him and he looks over at me. "Why would you deal with that? You could do better." he says and I shrug. "Me and Harry have a lot of history." I say and he shrugs. "But you deserve better. If he was a real man, he would put his own opinions and feelings aside and sit you down and beg you to marry him. If he couldn't give you that, then he simply wouldn't be worth it." he says and I look up at him kind of shocked. I didn't know the blunt side of Phillip. 

"What?" he asks confused and I chuckle a little bit. "Nothing, that was just unexpected." I say and he gives a little laugh. "Well, it's the truth. You deserve a man, not a boy." he says and I laugh at his words. I wouldn't think of Harry as a boy.