Love Me (editing)

The Texting Game

I haven't been speaking to Noah in the last several weeks. He's been non-stop texting and calling me. Dayna has been making sure I don't respond to him. She deletes texts and voice messages for me. She answers the door and tells him I'm not home. She's like my own personal bodyguard.
It's very hard ignoring him though when Dayna's not around. I always get tempted so she came up with a solution. At first, it was to block him and get rid of his contact information, but what if there was some kind of emergency? What if I went into labour?
So, her next solution was whenever I felt the urge to message him back I would pinch myself. Apparently, self-inflicting pain was my way of punishing myself for thinking about him or answering him. I've been getting messages from him all morning. Dayna went out on a date, which leaves me alone with these messages.

I'm sitting on my couch watching tv when I get a call. It's Noah. Pinch. Ow.
I send it straight to voicemail. I get a message notifying me that I got a voicemail. Pinch. Pinch. I throw my phone on the opposite side of the couch. It goes off notifying me of incoming messages. One message. Maybe I should just read one. Pinch. I turn the volume up on the tv. Another message. Pinch. It could be Dayna, I say to myself knowing that's probably not true. Pinch.
I grab my phone and look at the messages. There are so many.
9:05am: Ava, I'm not sure what I did wrong. The least you can do is tell me...please? -Noah

9:07am: I'm sorry for whatever it is. I didn't know not talking to you would feel like this :( -Noah

10:05am: I called you and it went straight to voicemail. At least listen to it? -Noah

10:10am: Right now I'm at work, so if you do decide to listen to it and call me back, call my office. Brenda will put you straight through. -Noah

12:00pm: Today I had a meeting, and I couldn't even concentrate. All I could think about was how you weren't speaking to me. -Noah

12:46pm: I have to wonder if you're even receiving these messages. I'm I just talking to myself?- Noah

1:27pm: Dammit Ava, answer me please. I need to know if you're okay. I need to know if the baby is okay. -Noah

2:09pm: This isn't funny anymore. It's been almost 2 months since we last had a conversation. You can't shut me out. In a month, the baby will come. We need to speak before then. Call me back. -Noah

2:48pm: I've been thinking of all the things I could've said or done that would make you this upset. I'm thinking it may have something to do with what Devlin said. About me not being able to see you. Are you practicing right now? Is that what's going on? -Noah

Oh my God, I didn't know not speaking to him would bother him this much. I'm kind of enjoying this. Now I find myself wondering about the messages he sent that Dayna erased. Maybe he was going to leave Devlin? I shouldn't get ahead of myself. Pinch. Pinch. Pinch.
I continue reading.

3:02pm: I don't like this at all. Ava, I miss you. You're not just the mother of my child. You're my best friend. I can talk to you about more things than I could with my family and other friends. Even Devlin for that matter.

Did he just call me a friend? I want to throw the phone across the room. But get an urge to keep reading. Pinch. Pinch.

Okay...maybe more than a friend. Please at least text me back. -Noah

I want to reply to him so badly. Pinch. Pinch. Pinch. Ow. I stop pinching myself. It's not helping. I listen to the voicemail he sent me.
"Hey Ava, it's Noah... Again. Look, uh I probably said all of this in text messages and in my other voicemails, but I miss you. Tell me how you are. Tell me if the baby is okay. Even if you call and don't say anything. I don't care just call me please."

I bite my lips. It's so hard to not answer him. I read the last message.

3:11pm: I decided that I don't care what Devlin says. I'm going to spend time with you even after the baby is born. -Noah

3:20pm: I've never missed anybody like this before. I think about you all the time. It's crazy. Ava please answer. I'm going insane. -Noah.

I can't help but smile. I'm so glad I read them. This plan, ignoring him was such a great idea. I owe Dayna.

3:33pm: I know you don't want to talk to me... But I bought you some cheesecake... Text me and I'll drop if off In a few minutes ;) -Noah

Ugh, he got me.
3:40pm: With strawberries on the side? -Ava

3:40pm: Of Course! Consider it my peace offering? Do you forgive me? -Noah

3:42pm: Fine. You're forgiven. -Ava.

3:43pm: you've just made me a happy man. :)) Be there in 15 minutes. -Noah