Find Your Way

Chapter Eight

Jade's POV

"Hoy, Jade! Anyare teh?" I felt Sally nudged me from my side.

"Hmm?" I asked completely lost on what she seemed to be saying.

"Ay sus talaga naman. Kawawa naman yung steak oh! Lamog na lamog na." She said after she rolled her eyes on me. "Ano ba kasing iniisip mo?"

"Oh, nothing. May naalala lang ako." I said while I'm staring blankly at Ahya Gab and Pearl who are currently having their first dance as a married couple.

"Nothing pero may naalala? Hay nako, Jade. Kanina naman ang lively ng aura mo, pero ngayon para kang nalulutang jan."

I chose to remain silent and ignore what she just said to avoid her from pushing the issue. Actually, hindi ko din maintindihan bakit ganito yung nararamdaman ko after what I saw.

Inaasahan ko naman na makikita ko si Althea hanggang dito sa reception. Aware din ako na as the wedding coordinator, mauuna sila dito sa venue para masiguradong ayos ang lahat. Ang hindi ko lang talaga inaasahan ay yung pakikipag-flirt niya kay Maricris. I know I shouldn't be reacting like this, but I can't help it. Parang nawala ako sa mood noong nakita kong ang saya-saya nilang magkausap na dalawa.

Pero bago pa iyon, kaninang nasa simbahan kami ay nakita ko na ito. Nakayuko ito habang nakatitig sa cellphone niya. I couldn't help but wonder kung sino ang katext nito dahil ngiting-ngiti ito. Doon pa lang, nakaramdam na ko ng kaunting inis but I chose to ignore it. And besides, I don't have any right to get jealous.

Jealous? Really? Did I just say that?

"No! This can't be!" Out of frustration, I suddenly exclaimed it out loud that caused Sally to look at me, wide eyed. Good thing were alone in this table.

"Ano ba kasing problema, Jade? Bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan?" I faced her and contemplate if I'm going to confess what Althea's making me feel after our first meeting.

"C'mon, Jade. Ganoon ba kabigat yung problema mo na kahit sa bestfriend mo, hindi mo masabi?" Sally said and I know she's testing me because of the tone she used.

I know I shouldn't keep this from her pero kung ganoon lang sana kadaling i-confess yung nararamdaman ko towards Althea, I could've done it from the start. Kahit na bestfriend ko si Sally, hindi ko pa din maiwasan na baka i-judge niya ko or layuan dahil sa mga sasabihin ko.

I shouldn't forget that she's been there for me through my ups and downs, sa lahat ng kalokohan ko, suportado niya ko. But this isn't a game anymore. I know what I feel for Althea is as serious as my father's business proposals.

I heave a sigh to lessen the tension that's been building up inside me. "Sally, remember what you told me at the bar three months ago?"

"Ahh, which one? The one we talked about David?" She said as she scooted near me so that we can talk, whispering to each other.

"N-No. The other o-one." I stuttered unwillingly.

Fuck. Why can't I just get to the point?!

"Alin ba dun? Ang dami-dami nating napag-usapan nun, Jade. Sabihin mo na lang kasi ng diretso." I can sense she's getting impatient. This is what Sally hates. Gusto niya straight to the point ka lagi. Ayaw na ayaw niya yung paligoyligoy. Hindi niya maiwasang mairita sa kausap niya kapag ganon. And yes, including her.