Find Your Way

Chapter Thirty-One

Althea's POV

Bustling crowd. People walking back and forth. Huge electronic billboards from left to right. Skyscrapers all over. Cars speeding along the way. This is indeed a one hell of a busy street. But who am I kidding? This is New York after all.

I've been here for almost two years now. Two years and still mending a broken heart. I never plan on leaving my country, it's just that I'm so damn hurt I wanted to overhaul my whole life, my whole personality.

A lot of tragic things happened in my life but I can say that this has been the most painful one next to when the heavens took my parents. I thought makakaya ko na since napagdaanan ko na ito kay Cathlyn, but I thought wrong. This misery I am in because of Jade is slowly killing me. Buhay pa ako pero wala na akong maramdaman. It's like she took all my emotions away and I don't even know how to get it back.

After that night I had with Jade, the best night actually, she left me. Again. I waited for her to comeback but she never did. Halos hindi ako umalis sa townhouse ko dahil naniniwala akong babalik siya. Naniniwala akong umatras siya sa engagement nila ni David. Tumutok ako sa news, updates sa social media kung anong nangyari pero walang lumalabas. Kung natuloy ba ito o hindi. They were so powerful that they can even control the media.

I tried reaching her over the phone pero laging operator ang sumasagot sa akin. Never a day had passed na hindi ko siya tinawagan pero hindi man lang ito nagriring. Hindi ko alam if she changed her no. o sadyang naka-block lang ako sa kanya. I actually asked Batchi to even tried and dial Jade to see if it's the same with mine. And when she did, operator lang din ang sumasagot.

I wanted to call Sally pero hindi ko naman alam ang number niya. Hindi ko din naman alam saan siya nakatira dahil hindi naman kami nagkaroon ng maraming time para mag-hangout. So because of my frustration, I swallowed my pride and tried reaching for David. Siya ang kahuli-hulihang tao na gusto kong hingan ng tulong but I don't have a choice. I can't just stand here and do nothing. Pero kagaya din ni Jade, mukhang nagpalit na din ito ng number.

I'm starting to feel hopeless and tensed dahil pakiramdam ko, pinaglaruan lang nila akong dalawa. I can't help but to think Jade betrayed me. Na isa lang akong parausan dahil bago sa kanya ang klase ng relasyon namin.

But I didn't let my demons won over my sanity. Sinikap kong paglabanan at intindihin ang sitwasyon kahit wala akong kasiguraduhan. Basta ang pinanghawakan ko lang, alam kong may dahilan ang lahat. I know Jade, and I have faith in her. Kung sabihin man niya sa akin na hindi niya na ako pwedeng piliin, tatanggapin ko.

Kahit masakit.

So after one week of staying inside my house, I finally got the courage to go to their mansion. Pakiramdam ko kasi mababaliw na ako kakaisip anong nangyari kay Jade. Pagdating ko doon sa kanila, hinarang kaagad ako ng mga security guards. Hindi pa nga ako nakakapasok ng gate, naka-abang na kaagad sila sa'kin. I didn't have any idea what's going on since their security doubled. Noong unang punta ko naman doon, hindi ganoon kadami yung security.

I begged and asked them politely if I can talk to Jade. I even tell them that I am one of her friends kahit gustong-gusto kong sabibin ang totoong relasyon ko sa kanya. But they didn't gave a chance. Kulang na nga lang hatakin na nila ako palabas ng subdivision. I am starting to get impatient and readied myself to charge at them just so I can get inside. Wala akong pakialam kahit makulong ako at mag-umpisa ng eskandalo.

All I wanted right now is to see Jade.

When I started shouting at the securities, that's when an old middle aged man came out. None other than, Mr. Tanchingco. Nakaramdam ako ng kaunting pag-asa dahil alam kong kilala ako ni Mr. Tanchingco. Maayos naman ang pakikitungo niya sa'kin noong organizer pa ako ng kasal ng panganay nito.