Your name is written on my heart (Mfw and Kbtbb fanfic)

Chapter 12: bittersweet memories

Ren pov:

Flashback

We were in a club. The music was loud and people were gathered all over the place. Lisa was getting drunk like a crazy woman.
''Ren, you should try this!" She said as she drowns another glass of vodka in her system.
I just shook my head watching her talking utter nonsense.
''Liz, I think you had enough.'' I said gently.
''Noooo! M-more drinks!" She said pouting.
I placed my hand on her back as I helped her to stand up.
''Everything is s-spinning.'' Why did I let her drink in the first place?!
I opened the door of the car as she got inside. Then I fasten her seatbelt and after that I drove away.
''R-Ren?"
''Hmm...''
''Do y-you know how m-much I lo-love you?" She asked. She is something I can't express in words. Lisa is special for me. I was so lost in my thoughts that I never noticed that she was talking.
''You know, ev-every drunk p-person speaks from the h-heart. They al-always say the truth. So.... Ren Shibasaki... I love you... I w-want to be sure you kn-know that. You a-are like an angel. My angel.'' And saying that, she crashed her lips to mine.
We don't need words, our eyes speak for us, and our hearts already know how much we love each other. It's amazing what love can do to people. I couldn't help but smile.
I am so lucky to have her. I love her more than my life. I want to spend my life with her.

End of flashback

*dring dring*

I moaned upon hearing the blasted phone ringing.
F*ck!
Still half asleep I moved my hands under my pillow and around the bed to find my phone. The incessant ringtone was giving me a headache. But the drone of the phone finally stopped. I had woken up with sweat all over my body. Why couldn't my brain get around the fact that she left me? She's just a b*tch.
It hurt like hell remebering our ''happy'' moments.
Yesterday, when I told everyone the truth about Lisa, everyone were shocked. I just left the place without listening to their comments on the fact. I'm fed up.
She was my drug.
I walked to the mirror and looked at my own image. I looked so fragile.
What did she do to me?!

(A/N this is Joe Jonas song "See no more" playing on the background.)

You walked away from me baby
I would've never done the same
You made me feel like our love was not real
You threw it all away, so

I don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wake up thinking, hoping
You will get it right this time
'Cause you know that you're so cold
I don't wanna see no more
And I can't get away from you
It's one of the reasons why
That I just can't get you out my mind
And all I keep seeing is your picture
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more

It was so easy to trust you baby
Guess I was so stupid baby
Oh, I didn't ever think that this would come
You're running right to another one, oh

You walked away from me baby
You threw it all away, so

I don't wanna wait for you, no, no
I don't wanna wake up thinking, hoping
You will get it right this time
'Cause you know that you're so cold
I don't wanna see no more
And I can't get away from you
It's one of the reasons why
That I just can't get you out my mind
And all I keep seeing is your picture
I don't wanna see no more (no more)
I don't wanna see no more (no more)
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more
I don't wanna see no more

I used to be afraid of letting go
The fragile part of me, I'm here right now
I need you to set me free
I can see it in your eyes
That you won't blame it on me this time
No, never
You might want me back but I won't look back, no

I don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wake up thinking, hoping
You will get it right this time
'Cause you know that you're so cold
I don't wanna see no more
And I can't get away from you
It's one of the reasons why
That I just can't get you out my mind
And all I keep seeing is your picture
I don't wanna see no more.
I don't wanna see no more.
I don't wanna see no more.
I don't wanna see no more.
I don't wanna see no more.

I still have her things in this house. If I want to get rid of her, I have to throw away all the things that are related to her. Then, I think, I'll be able to forget about her.
So I walk towards the wardrobe and started to throw in the trash can her belongings, like her favourite teddy bear, her earings, her ring, her pictures ecc...
Suddenly I found a diary. But... it's the same diary that she used to hide from everyone. She hated when someone touched her personal diary or even looked at it.
Looks like it's time to read it.
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Don't hit me with anything. I updated after so long!
Sorry for the mistakes.
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So what do you think?? In the next chapter, Ren is going to know a lot of things by reading Lisa's diary ;)
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