5sos Blurb Book #4

103. lashton

luke was by his side in a second
'what?..you-you, what?'
ashton looked up with teary and tired eyes as luke's mouth opened and closed like a fish
'how could you think you're not beautiful?' he whispered and ashton shrugged, wiping his nose with his sweater sleeve
'you didn't just say that, oh god i'm the worst fucking..why did i-i..y-you're so pretty, gorgeous, ya know that? you are.' his accent was thick because he was so upset and ashton sniffled but didn't look up
so luke walked across the room and drove his fist into the wall, his tattooed arms flexed and tensed.
he was pissed at himself
how--why did i not tell him enough oh god — god you're a jackass luke you're so fucking stupid stupid stupid stupid why are you so stupid
he turned back to him and held his face despite the blood dripping down his knuckles
'i-i, you're so pretty, so so beautiful, i-i..remember the first day i saw you?' he tried, kissing his nose 'i couldn't even talk i was speechless because you were so gorgeous an-and i had to practice in my head of what i was going to say to you.'
ashton blinked and bit as his lip, sucking it into his mouth, and nodded.
'say it.'
's-say what?'
'say "i'm beautiful."'
ashton shook his head and looked away and luke bit his lip, wanting to cry
'i'll make you believe it.'

luke was dead set on determined, that's for one, because there was no way ashton will spend the rest of his life with luke thinking he isn't beautiful
so he would make ashton believe it.
ashton weighs himself every morning, and that always pissed luke off but now he knows the real reason he did it,
so when ashton wakes up the next morning the scale is found without any insides, all of them in the trash with the word BEAUTIFUL across the screen where the amount of weight is read and ashton smiled a little.

that was a start.

then luke started leaving little notes in random places, in the medicine cabinet or written on the mirror or on the box of cheerios, explaining how pretty and amazing he was.

and that got a little bit of a bigger smile.

luke would always shower him with kisses when he came home from being out, but now he added little mumbles of you're beautiful and i love you so much and the occasional bouquet of roses — that'll never be prettier than you, he says — and ashton grinned like he used to after a while of that.

it took a long time, but luke didn't care.

@Ashton5SOS: @Luke5SOS really knows how to make you feel beautiful.

@Luke5sos: @Ashton5SOS <3