Happy late thanksgiving and happy what ever you celebrate in December. Holidays are a sad time for me. So I haven't been posting. Because of the encouragement of one my fav. writers and sweet friend (Rebeca). I am going to share this with you. I'm sorry its sad thats where I am at right now. Peace out S.N.M.
The Abyss
I hate feeling like this.
I am lost in this black abyss.
I can not hear, see or smell.
I am drowning in this never ending well.
It is filled with sorrow and pain.
I prayed for help, it never came.
I'm trying to reach the top, but the sadness pushes me down again and again.
I know this is not the way it has always been.
But I can't remember the good times.
Just the memories of you being shot down in your prime.
I will never again feel alive.
I will not prosper and thrive.
I am just here drowning in all the pain and tears.
To never again feel happy and whole, is one of my greatest fears.
In my future I can not picture any happiness.
Just this vast abyss of loneliness.
I am just an empty body that takes up space.
I have nothing to offer and I don't fit in any place.
I am sinking deeper and deeper into the abyss.
I know at least my life will not be missed.
S.N.M.
