Missing You Again
Here I go again missing you.
Wondering if your feeling it too.
Sometimes I think I'm going insane.
How many times have I written of this pain.
But I have no choice because it keeps coming back again and again.
Since the day you left this is the way it's been.
I try to be positive and remember the good, really I try.
But then the pain hits and I can't breath, my heart feels like its going to die.
I just want to hold you tight.
And for a little while make everything alright.
But I know it is to much to ask for.
Because death is like a final shutting of a door.
It is not for you that I shed my tears.
Because you are now safe, happy and without any fears.
I am not blind I do see.
That the tears are all about me.
On a good day I tell myself to stop being selfish, and its enough.
But on those bad days the pain just hurts so so much.
I stop I smell the flowers.
I take notice of April showers.
I do my best to help put good back in the world.
I look for new experiences and give them a whirl.
Why is my peace out of reach?
And why, the walls of pain can I not breach?
Every time I'm alone it comes crashing down on me and I can't catch my breath.
I pray for the sweet release of death.
But it dose not come.
Because I still have experiences to live I'm not done.
So here I go missing you again.
And again, it's the way it has been.
MISSING YOU
Lee Lee
