Because Of The Bucket List

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

I wake up with a pounding headache. The sad part, I don't regret it one bit.

Needless to say, last night was horrible. After we got home Jace informed me that he was hosting the party. He had Trent and Chelsea take Emma for the weekend. It's not like I could be mad. It's his house. Not mine. So, I decided to join in on the fun. Not the best idea. Actually, it was the worst.

Jace and I were having a blast at first. Doing shots together and playing party games. We were having fun. Then some girl he knew showed up and started hitting on him. Then they both proceeded to go to his room. I know I sound childish but I like him. A lot. Even if he doesn't like me back or know that I like him, for some odd reason I felt like he did it on purpose. Just to hurt me.

J A C E

I'm a fucking idiot.

I get up and throw the covers off me and the slut I slept with last night.

"Get out." I tell her harshly. She jumps up and gets dressed.

"What's wrong Jace?" She asks. I think her name is Amber. I'm not sure. I was drunk and didn't care.

"Nothing. Just get the fuck out!" I yell at her. What the fuck is wrong with me? This isn't me. I don't sleep with random girls. I don't yell at girls either. What the hell is wrong with me?

"Screw you Jace!" She yells back, storms out, and slams my door.

I don't know what the hell I was thinking. I was drunk and I'm a horrible person.

I slam my fist into my wall.

I'm.

Punch.

A.

Punch.

Horrible.

Punch.

Fucking.

Punch.

Person.

What was I thinking? Why did I do this? Why do I always do this shit? What the hell is wrong with me? I was having fun with Arielle one minute and the next I'm ruining everything. I felt like she was getting to close. I felt like my feelings were showing. I was scared. She kept hitting me and laughing with me. We were having a great time and I got scared. For a moment I felt like she liked me. I'm sure now that it was just because she was drunk, but at the time I didn't think about that.

I need to get out. I need to talk to someone.

I need to fix this.