He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

no one will miss the mysterious one

ZAYN'S P.O.V

" li-li i love you so much" niall cooes to liam

" nialler i know, and i love you back my little leprechaun" he says and looks at me and smirks

my blood starts to boil it takes all of my strengtht to not get up and punch liam right in the face, he is just rubbing it in my face i want to fucking kill him its been four months and all i hear is moans coming from their room. they keep having sex every god damn day. i mean how many fucking times can they do it. are they fucking rabbits or something.

i run up the stairs and slam my door shut, the tears start pouring out of my eyes. i cant stop thinking about niall, about my nialler. i think about his beautiful face that makes me smile and about his beautiful shocking blue eyes that absolutely mesmerise and his adorable smile that makes me happy just to see it and the fact that i will never get to kiss his soft and sweet lips

my little leprechaun, the fact that i will never have him now, he hates me, now i know how he feels i know why he cut.

i know what he felt after he cut because i started 3 months ago, almost every inch of my body is covered in scars, it hurts sleeping, or sitting or doing anything. there are days where i want to run away, days i want to kill myself, days where i feel worthless.

the last person i actually had a conversation with was harry almost 3 months ago, none of the boys talk to me, no one will miss me if i was gone. no one will miss the mysterious loser bad-boy. the only thing is i wont tell anyone that i am going to end it, i am not going to cut, i am going to end it the right way. i take off my clothes so i am just in my boxers, exposing all my scars

i pull out the rope i bought the other day. i tied it into a noose and hooked it to my door i slip my head into the noose and i just think, i think about my pathetic life. how much the world would be a better place without me

NIALL'S P.O.V

" liam i am going to check on zayn, everyone has been ignoring him, i am worried, he isnt as strong as you think." i say

" ni i will go with you" he says nervously

we walk up the stairs we stand outside of zayn's door, i hear crying. my heart drops, i knew it. i knock on the door and say "zayn are you ok"

" niall go the fuck away, let me go in peace" he sobs

the words he said click and i tell liam to bust the door down, he slams into the door and what i see breaks me. zayn has a rope tied around his neck and he is going to kick the chair from out from under himself. liam grabs him but it is a little to late. he fell but liam grabbed him before his neck snapped

" liam i dont think i can do this, i was at this stage less than 5 months ago. if we keep this up there will be no more zayn or one direction" i say crying, while holding zayn in my arms

" nialler its ok, i understand, plus i have had the biggest crush on josh for a while" he says smiling

" what about nosh you just killed an amazing bromance" i say trying to lighten the mood

" ni we need to get zayn some help he cant do this anymore look at all the scars" li says

" this is my fault li-li" i sob

" dont blame yourself leprechaun" li says

soooo what did you think, i really wish more people would read this