He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

louis i love you!!

Hazza's P.O.V.

louis will never feel the same about me. i am never good enough for him, i am just done with trying, no one will miss me. liam and niall are always to busy for me and zayn stopped talking to me so its like i am a nobody, the make me seem like a manwhore but i have never had a girlfriend or never shagged a girl. its all lies so my entire life is just a fucking lie.

i sit down at my desk in my room and pull out a 4 pieces of paper a pen and a razor blade i say to myself " this is it"

i start writing a note to niall

Niall

when you find this i will most likely be long gone, i couldn't do this, i really am in love with him and it hurts so much, niall you know how i feel so you are going to have to help everyone with coping. you are such a sweet guy and i hope zayn notices that long enough to get his fucking head on straight.

Zayn

GET YOUR FUCKING HEAD ON STRAIGHT AND ASK NIALL OUT YOU HEARTLESS PRAT!!!!!!!!

Z you have always been my best friend and i know you will miss me and please hug niall every once in a while after i am gone, he is going to need it

Liam

Daddy direction, i am so sorry but i just couldnt do this anymore. louis has broke me and i cant go on. i know that you will probably take this the best because you look at things logically but liam i had to do this and there is not way of stopping this

i seal them in an envelope and i walk out of my room and tape each letter on the guys doors i walk back to my room with tears pouring out of my eyes, i pull out the last piece of paper and i find my old fashioned quill pen i run the razor across my wrist and let the blood run into the ink well.

Louis

i am sorry i was ever a bother to you, i know you don't feel the same i mean who would ever love a nobody like me, someones whose entire life is a lie, i cant fucking stand you but at the same time i fucking love you with all my heart. louis i did this for you so you didnt have to deal with me anymore, so you dont have to see the sad puppy, the one that you abuse and hurt but still follows you around because he loves you goodbye louis

i pull out my phone and i text louis

WELL THIS IS IT LOUIS, I LOVE YOU PLZ TELL MY MOTHER I LOVE HER

i start getting light headed and my stomach starts to turn i am so close just a little more and it will all be over

so thats it for now i won't be writing anymore until i get some comments