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Stars(passing as sane)

http://www.wattpad.com/2412649-stars-passing-as-sane-a-completed-short-story

by frimohuggz

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Rudra's POV:

 

The rest of the day passed in a daze. I felt satisfied and content. But a niggling thought eating me up was that how could I have been so selfish? He is my husband and I never denied him. How could I ask him to stop at such a point? I felt horrible. Sad.

I will make it up to him, I promised myself

Sigh, I'm such a looser. I can't even punish him.

"But, he is your husband love", a small voice whispered in my head.

"Yes, but he hurt me and my family", I argued.

"Does he not deserve a second chance?" It asked again.

"What! A second chance! After what he did to my family? Are you kidding me?" I whispered angrily at this tiny but strong voice. 

"Why are you confusing me ", I begged softly, "I have to be strong for my family, please let me be strong."

"Family!" it exclaimed in anger," Isn't he a part of your family? He is the father of your children you brainless women. He is living in a warehouse to atone his sins. " 

"I know, but maybe, he is doing it for his sister and daughter?" I asked in doubt.

"Oh yaa! Is it so? Then please explain why was he sitting by your bed crying his eyes out in the hospital? Why did he carry you up the stairs? Why did he ask your child not to hurt you? Why did he let you seduce him and why did he stop when you asked him to? Even when he himself was unsatisfied, even when he himself was beyond the point of no return? Tell me Rose, tell me/"

I sat there, alone in my room, crying to myself, only my unborn child to comfort me. I couldn't talk about this to Caro. She was pissed at this afternoon's stunt. She felt I was betraying her and the family. 

She had taken it in her head that her father is a bastard and had completely forgotten years of love and sacrifice. I couldn't bear to see the hatred in her eyes either. My family's torment was enough for him, but seeing his daughter break his heart was too much.

I was so damn confused, my love on one side and my family and children on the other. I know, he had slapped me too, but seeing he now, was like seeing my gentle giant again, my love, my life was back with me.

What really scared me was the confusion of not knowing which was his real personality, his loving kind nature or his cruel inhuman, almost monstrous one. I feared that his lies would suck me in, once again show me the stars and crash me on earth, I couldn't go through the hell again, trouble was, I had glimpsed paradise in his arms twice now and my greedy little heart wanted more. 

I wanted love and companionship and yes, I wanted hot wild and passionate love, love-making so powerful that it consumed us again, but how would I do it?