Healing

Chapter 4

~Anna~

I looked back and waved to my mom as I boarded the plane one last time. I was kind of scared to get on the plane alone, but then again, I wouldn't be able to go to England, like I wanted to. I walked on, trying to ignore the fear running through my body and the pounding in my chest. Gosh, why was I so freaked out by a plane? There was no reason for me to be so scared.

As the plane lifted off, I saw my mom waving from the window with James and Kyle standing beside her. I had told them not to come since we had said goodbye the day before but they came anyway. Basically and thankfully, they were the only friends that I had since Cassie died.

My heart ached every time I thought of her or heard her name. I couldn't seem to get over the fact that I was so stupid that I wouldn't even move to safety when I knew I was supposed to. Why did I freeze up like I did? 17 people injuries and some of I was my fault. Even worse, had the shooter realized that I was still at my desk, he could've come into that room and Cassie wouldn't have been the only one that died. That's how stupid I was. My mom always told me it wasn't my fault, but I couldn't agree with her. I don't think I'll ever not hate myself for my foolishness.

I looked at the portable tv in front of me and saw some kind of interviewing on at a radio station. When did they start televising radio station interviews? I put the headphones on only because I didn't have anything better to do and listened into the interview. I was kinda surprised at the fact that the guy I saw on the tv last night was with his band in an interview. Who did Cassie say they were? Oh yeah, some band by the name of One Direction.

~Niall~

I sat down in the seat I was told to sit in, which happens to be in between Harry and Liam, and lean back in my chair. They told us that this was the first time for the radio station that they were televising the interview. So what, are we the guinea pigs for everything now?

The interviewer sat down and asked if we were ready to start.

"Alrighty, let's start this now." Louis says a little too enthusiastically and Harry chuckles, the other boys nod in response.

"Good morning ladies and gentlemen. I am your host Andrew for this afternoon. We have a treat for you guys this on this afternoon show. We'll have exclusive interview with Olly Murs and I believe we will also have Katy Perry in as well, so stay tuned for those, but right now we have a special guest that I believe everyone will love. It's One Direction people." Andrew announced with a wide smile on his face. The boys cheered and I smiled a little.

"Now it sure is great to have you here. I'm glad you could make it."

"Why thank you Andrew. Thank you for having us." Harry said happily and the boys agreed. I'm glad they are happy. I'm not sure I can smile a little more than half a smile anymore it seems.

"Now lets get started. Niall you alright there? You look a little tired." Andrew said as he looked at me.

"Yeah just a tad tired, that's all." I said quietly and Liam looked at me quickly when he realized how quiet I was and smiled slightly to hide his frown. I closed my eyes, rolling them slowly and hiding it from anyone that was probably watching. The boys and Andrew started talking and I stared off into space.

~Anna~

"Yeah I'm just a tad tired." I rolled my eyes as that Niall kid said that. Yeah, so if you were so tired then why do you go out all the time? Doofus. I kept listening just because I was bored.

"So boys you have an album coming out very soon. How excited are you about it?" The interviewer Andrew asked them. Wait. A new album. Cassie would've loved that as a present, then she would've forced me to listen to it. I kept thinking about Cassie a bit more and thought about how much she would've loved to just see this interview and tears filled my eyes. I blinked them away and turned back to the interview.

"Now which one of you is single?" Andrew asked. This kind of interested me even though I didn't like their music. "Okay so only Niall and Harry right?" The blonde kid didn't even move. Seriously?! Is he that important that he doesn't need to pay attention. Jerk. But then again, his face did look a little pained. He looked...no he couldn't be.

No way in the entire world could he look like that. Anyone that plays with people's hearts couldn't look like he was about he was gonna cry. I looked again just to make sure and I was right. I was kind of shocked to be honest. I mean he was a celebrity and he probably had broken three girls' hearts. He had to be heartless. Or was he? Not to mention he looked familiar

"Niall." The interviewer said. "Earth to Niall." The brown curly haired nudged him gently whispering something to him after Niall jumped. He looked at Andrew with a spacey look and smiled slightly, if you could even call it a smile.

"Now Niall, I was gonna ask you if you were single but by your look I can tell that you're not having much fun with life at the moment. Would that explain why you've been out lately, with multiple people I might add?" Andrew asked it seemed very boldly. I was shocked by his reaction.

~Niall~

"Would that explain why you've been out lately, with multiple people I might add?" The interviewer asked me. I felt the blood drain from my face and knew immediately that my face paled. I felt the all of the boys eyes on me as I struggled with what I should say.

"Um no. There's..uh.. There's just been something's in my life that I've been struggling with." I stumbled for a little but the says quietly. With the looks I was getting from Harry and Liam, I guess I was quieter than I thought I actually was. I looked down and bite the inside of my lip, hoping this interview person wouldn't press on. Tears brimmed my eyes and I quickly blinked them away not wanting to worry anyone. Thankfully the guy moved on and I just stayed staring at the table in front of me. Liam gently touched my arm and looked at me.

"You okay there Ni?" he whispered to me. I nodded slightly. Getting through this was gonna be harder than I thought. He rubbed my back quickly understanding. I zoned out again thinking about my mum. How was I sure that she was okay? I trusted Greg but I wasn't sure if I could trust myself in believing everything that I was told. The boys had offered for me to go see her, but I didn't want to be there right at the moment.

Before I knew it, Harry stood up signaling the end of the interview. I shook Andrew's hand and ran out of the room to the bathroom. Locking the stall door and sank to the floor, tears flowing down my cheeks. I cried for my mum. I cried because I felt rejected and hated by my dad. I cried because I felt so lonely.

~Anna~

I pulled the headphones off and set them where they were beforehand as the interview was over and watched as the Niall kid ran off somewhere, looking as if he gonna was gonna cry. I leaned my head onto the back of my seat thinking about things kinda confused. Why did the look on this kids face look so hurt? What was going on in his life that made him look so broken? I grabbed my journal and started writing to Carrie again.

A couple hours later and an exhausting flight, I walked up the stairs of my dorm room and turned around looking at the rising city in front of me. Somewhere there in that city of London was a hurting boy ad she couldn't stop thinking about him. Would I meet him? Could she help him with some of the things that he was going through, or was he just a boy that she thought of and wondered about? Why did he look so familiar? Only time could tell what the future would hold.

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So I realize it jumps back and forth between Anna and Niall a lot in this chapter. I hope it doesn't confuse you too much. Sorry if it does. I really hope you enjoy this chapter. It took some time to think about how the interview would happen. I'm not sure i picked the right option. Oh well. Thank you so much for reading my book. I really can't show how happy I am go know people ate reading my book. I know that it isn't the best book at all but from the bottom of my heart I thank you so much. I love you all.

Althea Heatherly <3