Poems about life :)

Confrontation

Confrontation 2/1/12

I can’t understand, no matter how hard I try

And I don’t know why

I can’t even explain how I’m feeling right now

I don’t know why these tears keep falling

I don’t know why my heart keeps aching

I don’t know why my head keeps pounding

Numbness and pain keeps surfacing at the same time

I have to get a hold of myself

 I need to get a grip

But who to hold on to? Nobody’s here

I deserve this, but why does it have to be this excruciating?

Making myself feel worse in this tempestuous over thinking

So paranoid, tense, nervous and uneasy

So irritated, agitated and confused

I think I’m going insane

I want to go back to quietly chilling and ignoring

Back to enjoying life no matter how bad my position is

Mixed up messages contradicting one another

How am I supposed to understand all of this?

This is such a screwed up situation

What the hell is going on?

What are you talking about?

Can we please just stop fighting?

I can’t take it anymore, I hate what I’m retorting

Can’t we just tell each other how we really feel?

Why do we need to yell at each other?

Neither of us is backing down

Speaking with minds filled with enmity

Our hearts closed up, unable to speak out

We aren’t going anywhere with this conversation

I want to understand you but we’re so opposite

I don’t want to give up but it seems like you already did

You say you’re only imitating me, am I really that cold?

I want to fix this no matter what

Even though we can never be the same again…

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Author's Note: i'm so confused, i don't know what to do :(