Poems about life :)

Sorry...

Sorry 2/17/12

A simple word that my pride never lets me say

A word that can immediately cure any misunderstanding

A word that needs courage and humility to be spoken

A word that brings you relief after months of painful guilt

When you didn’t say this to someone who you hurt

Especially if that someone is very special to you

You’re simply killing yourself slowly inside

With the remorse eating you alive every night

Giving each other the silent treatment

That’s worse than fighting with each other

Because they are showing you

That they can be happy without you

Throwing sharp glares and heinous insults

Why can’t we just let go and move on?

There’s still something holding me back

Playing me back in reverse every time I see you

Drowning myself in a deep ocean of denial

Wishing that I would stop feeling such uncontrollable emotions

Pretending to not care about something you hold so dearly

Only intensifies the grueling pain you feel inside

Only tears seem to slightly relieve you from it

Different things keep running through my mind

Till my mind over thinks, stressing itself out

Only ending up being mad at something you can’t understand

All I know is I’m self-doubting, self-loathing and anxious

Then the realization smacks you on the face

I kept thinking I’m the one who’s right

I never bothered to see from the other side

My mind keeps drifting away from consciousness

I declare speeches with my furious anger

I talk before I think like an impulsive bitch

Dangerously unstable like a time bomb waiting to explode

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Author's Note: Bedan Retreat experience :) the food was AWESOME! hahaha